I've been really thinking about/planning what do when I'm off and the baby comes. Some days i can't wait but others...the kids drive me nuts, the house drives me nuts, the dog drives me nuts. I can really see some wicked PPD in my future but at the same time some of the simplest things make me so happy and take my mind off things.
I took this weekend off and i've been saying forever that i'll take a weekend off a month but i don't because god forbid i lose that one hour of overtime. Anyway, i got all housework done by friday and friday night we went shopping for emily's bike and a couple other things. We got home a bit late, 8:30 but the girls still got to ride their bikes up and down the road. Then we sat and just ate freezies, all five of us on the porch til almost 10pm.
Saturday i woke up relatively early (yet still slept in!) and got the baking finished, prepped the lasagna and was pissed that everyone else got to relax. But we packed up and off we went to the zoo. It was amazing because Sean was fascinated by the animals and was trying to say their names. We had lunch and went to the splash pad area. We seriously need a few more sets of eyes to keep track of these kids. 4.5 hours later. Sean was a basketcase and i was ready to lay down in the stroller. The girls were awesome though and we went home where i just layed there. Mike hooked up wireless in the house...
And downloaded a ton of Classic Nintendo games! Super mario bros., Zelda:A link to the past, Zelda:Ocarina of time, Castlevania, Super Mario 64, and Punch out! Holy crap is Sean in video game heaven....this kid is so freaking co-ordinated for a 3 year old. First thing he said this morning is "Mommy, I pay 'ario game?!"
And i feel soo refreshed! 4 days off. I just have Sean with me. YEsterday i visited Ma and she has both girls...I swear whenever she has the kids she sounds 15 years younger on the phone. We all went shopping and we will go appliance shopping on Thursday.
Today i took the clothesline out and put it up myself, did 2 loads of laundry and that was all i could handle. Babysteps, well that and the 10 trips to the garage to get rid of the recycling....
Monday, June 30, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Great weekend!
I always seem to bitch and complain about how boring and routine life is but when Mike suggests we do something, I'm always too tired to make the effort to do it.
On Saturday i worked the morning shift but after waking up at 5:30am (half hour late) and getting to work at 6:04am, driving about a litre of coffee, I was awake and revved up to do anything. So I get home and Mike suggests Wasaga Beach. Are you effing serious?? Yup! So we tell the kids we are going to the beach and they were so excited and just bouncing off the walls. We gathered towels and bathing suits, car keys and credit cards and off we went.
Kids were totally deflated when they realized that the beach is not next door, in fact it was just over an hour away. We get there and park the van, kids slip into bathing suits and off we go into the water.
Holy crap is it ever dirty!! The first 3-5 feet of water is in fact slugged, icky muddy water with sand floating on top. Sean was freaking out at first because he is seriously a germaphobe and Adrienne absolutely refused to get in that shit! They did get over it and as we went in deeper the water got a bit cleaner. They splashed around until Sean decided to drink the yuck stuff. Emily was digging for sludge underneath the water then running to the shore to make a castle.
We got out of the water for a bit and Mike and girls went to get some food while Sean and i cuddled in a towel and he stopped shivering. They return with food from Burger King and i swear every single seagull on that damn beach surrounded us. It reminded me of some book/story that i read of the young Russian couple that were chased by a pack of wolves and i believe the husband sacrificed his new bride to save his own skin... They completely surrounded us and watched every bite so intently. Sean took a mozzarella stick and put it on a frisby about 1 foot away didn't a damn bird swoop in and steal it!!!
So they all decide to go back in the water but i could see lightening in the distance so out we go. We figured we'd just get dressed and walk along the strips and see whats in the shops.... but the torrential downpour started so we hopped into the van. Mike got us all Dairy Queen and then we were off. We got home at 9:30pm and we had to dump the kids in the tub to clean the sludge off them. By the time we got them to bed it was after 10pm. You'd think they'd sleep....
Finally, i had a morning off but you'd think the kids would co-operate...I went to the bathroom at 2:20am, woke up to Noelle licking her stitches at 5:00am (she got the cone off!), Sean came in at 5:20, I went to his bed at 5:30, he and dog went back to his bed at 6:00, then work up girls by 6:20, I went back to my bed at that time, at 6:30 emily was in the bathroom brushing her teeth and asking what she should wear, made them all go downstairs and dozed off again til 8:30am.
We made Eggs Benedict for breakfast and i got to sew and just veg while mike went shopping around. Only problem was that i was having the contractions from hell all bloody morning! And i worked at 3pm. Can't wait til next weekend when i'm off. We're going to Centre Island!
On Saturday i worked the morning shift but after waking up at 5:30am (half hour late) and getting to work at 6:04am, driving about a litre of coffee, I was awake and revved up to do anything. So I get home and Mike suggests Wasaga Beach. Are you effing serious?? Yup! So we tell the kids we are going to the beach and they were so excited and just bouncing off the walls. We gathered towels and bathing suits, car keys and credit cards and off we went.
Kids were totally deflated when they realized that the beach is not next door, in fact it was just over an hour away. We get there and park the van, kids slip into bathing suits and off we go into the water.
Holy crap is it ever dirty!! The first 3-5 feet of water is in fact slugged, icky muddy water with sand floating on top. Sean was freaking out at first because he is seriously a germaphobe and Adrienne absolutely refused to get in that shit! They did get over it and as we went in deeper the water got a bit cleaner. They splashed around until Sean decided to drink the yuck stuff. Emily was digging for sludge underneath the water then running to the shore to make a castle.
We got out of the water for a bit and Mike and girls went to get some food while Sean and i cuddled in a towel and he stopped shivering. They return with food from Burger King and i swear every single seagull on that damn beach surrounded us. It reminded me of some book/story that i read of the young Russian couple that were chased by a pack of wolves and i believe the husband sacrificed his new bride to save his own skin... They completely surrounded us and watched every bite so intently. Sean took a mozzarella stick and put it on a frisby about 1 foot away didn't a damn bird swoop in and steal it!!!
So they all decide to go back in the water but i could see lightening in the distance so out we go. We figured we'd just get dressed and walk along the strips and see whats in the shops.... but the torrential downpour started so we hopped into the van. Mike got us all Dairy Queen and then we were off. We got home at 9:30pm and we had to dump the kids in the tub to clean the sludge off them. By the time we got them to bed it was after 10pm. You'd think they'd sleep....
Finally, i had a morning off but you'd think the kids would co-operate...I went to the bathroom at 2:20am, woke up to Noelle licking her stitches at 5:00am (she got the cone off!), Sean came in at 5:20, I went to his bed at 5:30, he and dog went back to his bed at 6:00, then work up girls by 6:20, I went back to my bed at that time, at 6:30 emily was in the bathroom brushing her teeth and asking what she should wear, made them all go downstairs and dozed off again til 8:30am.
We made Eggs Benedict for breakfast and i got to sew and just veg while mike went shopping around. Only problem was that i was having the contractions from hell all bloody morning! And i worked at 3pm. Can't wait til next weekend when i'm off. We're going to Centre Island!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Baby #5
Maybe I do have more ramblings left in me. Why the hell am i dreaming about a 5th kid when i haven't even popped out the 4th?? Seriously, i've never even considered 5 children. Suddenly, i keep having dreams about her. Her because #5 is a baby girl, I called her Ashlyn and she's all decked out in a beautiful pink dress.
I told mike to hurry up and get the boys snipped. He's got a consult at some point in september but it takes at least a couple months to get the procedure done after that. Why do i get the feeling that Dylan will have an Irish twin? Ya know, i know i'll be sad when my baby days are over but i can't have a 5th. I need money. I need to work. To save for the kids education, our retirement, pay down the mortgage, buy a bigger house to have rooms for crazy kids and wonderpets. Is it just dealing with my childbearing years being done or is there really another little girl that is meant to be part of our family??
I told mike to hurry up and get the boys snipped. He's got a consult at some point in september but it takes at least a couple months to get the procedure done after that. Why do i get the feeling that Dylan will have an Irish twin? Ya know, i know i'll be sad when my baby days are over but i can't have a 5th. I need money. I need to work. To save for the kids education, our retirement, pay down the mortgage, buy a bigger house to have rooms for crazy kids and wonderpets. Is it just dealing with my childbearing years being done or is there really another little girl that is meant to be part of our family??
Little bit of everything....
Well its been a horrible freaking week. Mike's been stressed out at work. I've been stressed out at work. The kids are monsters. Great-Nan is in the hospital following Monday's surgery. All around its been a little bit of everything.
There's good news on the money front....We will be getting mike's tax refund by June 23 so the line of credit will be paid off then. My shopping spree cost way more than $1000. About $400 was just clothing for the girls and about $150 on christmas gifts. I sent almost $650 yesterday to pay off my old Visa and racked up over $450 on new one...Still have to get baby's crib set and Emily's new bike.
Took Sean to the doctors with me on Thursday. He was pretty good. Still doesn't quite gett that there's a baby in my tummy. I weigh a whopping 146 lbs with 8 solid weeks to go. Ma's hoping i'll hit 153 which is what she was when i was born.... Then we managed to get from EGH to Adrienne's school in 17 minutes because she was devestated about missing water day.
I think i have 25 shifts left to work and the kids have 1.5 weeks of school left. I can't freaking wait. I love being at home...not dealing with the chaos all day but at least sleeping and feeling able to cope with the chaos. When i'm off i go to bed early and wake up early. The mornings go so much more smoothly and i can get stuff done and then relax in the afternoon.
Anyhoo, not much left to ramble about, so signing off for now....
There's good news on the money front....We will be getting mike's tax refund by June 23 so the line of credit will be paid off then. My shopping spree cost way more than $1000. About $400 was just clothing for the girls and about $150 on christmas gifts. I sent almost $650 yesterday to pay off my old Visa and racked up over $450 on new one...Still have to get baby's crib set and Emily's new bike.
Took Sean to the doctors with me on Thursday. He was pretty good. Still doesn't quite gett that there's a baby in my tummy. I weigh a whopping 146 lbs with 8 solid weeks to go. Ma's hoping i'll hit 153 which is what she was when i was born.... Then we managed to get from EGH to Adrienne's school in 17 minutes because she was devestated about missing water day.
I think i have 25 shifts left to work and the kids have 1.5 weeks of school left. I can't freaking wait. I love being at home...not dealing with the chaos all day but at least sleeping and feeling able to cope with the chaos. When i'm off i go to bed early and wake up early. The mornings go so much more smoothly and i can get stuff done and then relax in the afternoon.
Anyhoo, not much left to ramble about, so signing off for now....
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Feeling Guilty
Yesterday we did our planned shopping trip. We get to Square One and get the sleepy brats into the stroller. This lasts about 3.5 seconds, or the middle of Sears, til Sean freaks to get out and "go that way!" He lays down in the middle of the high traffic isle til Mike picked him up by his overalls and carries him like shopping bag. Everyone seeing this is laughing their heads off including me. People look at us like we're nuts because their counting children and bulging belly.
I finally him Gymboree. OMG so did every other asshole in the GTA. They only had one of the dress that i wanted in Adrienne's size, not Emily's. The store was in chaos and seriously Canadian prices suck! Our dollar is almost par with the American and online the dresses start at $34 but in Canada they are $46. Anyhoo, got my clothes but one of Emily's doesn't fit--boo hoo. I'm going to make Mike exchange it. Bought more sensible priced clothing at the Children's Place--again one of Emily's shirts is too big so i'll be exchanging today after work... I swear i'm just going to shop online and with Emily Only!!!
Sean was a demon shit so we didn't go to Chuck E Cheese as originally planned. We get home so mike give Sean the $75 build a bear...Yikes!! He opened the box, said "oooohhhh, baseball bear. (pause) I go play game." Tossed it on the floor and left. Mike was so hurt, he went to mow the lawn. I did get to say I told you so but i felt bad for him. I guess neither of us won on this one. I remember Adrienne's face lighting up at her 3rd birthday getting "Three Bear," she's slept with it ever since. Emily lost her original 'Kristina Bear' in Florida and was devastated til mike replaced it with a new and clean Krissy. Whatever, Mike's right. We try too hard. Kids don't give a shit. I said to give it to the new baby. Sean got his birthday wish, he played with the Wii. Sometimes i don't get why we spend money, I mean the free or cheap stuff is so much more enjoyed and appreciated than the expensive ones.
I finally him Gymboree. OMG so did every other asshole in the GTA. They only had one of the dress that i wanted in Adrienne's size, not Emily's. The store was in chaos and seriously Canadian prices suck! Our dollar is almost par with the American and online the dresses start at $34 but in Canada they are $46. Anyhoo, got my clothes but one of Emily's doesn't fit--boo hoo. I'm going to make Mike exchange it. Bought more sensible priced clothing at the Children's Place--again one of Emily's shirts is too big so i'll be exchanging today after work... I swear i'm just going to shop online and with Emily Only!!!
Sean was a demon shit so we didn't go to Chuck E Cheese as originally planned. We get home so mike give Sean the $75 build a bear...Yikes!! He opened the box, said "oooohhhh, baseball bear. (pause) I go play game." Tossed it on the floor and left. Mike was so hurt, he went to mow the lawn. I did get to say I told you so but i felt bad for him. I guess neither of us won on this one. I remember Adrienne's face lighting up at her 3rd birthday getting "Three Bear," she's slept with it ever since. Emily lost her original 'Kristina Bear' in Florida and was devastated til mike replaced it with a new and clean Krissy. Whatever, Mike's right. We try too hard. Kids don't give a shit. I said to give it to the new baby. Sean got his birthday wish, he played with the Wii. Sometimes i don't get why we spend money, I mean the free or cheap stuff is so much more enjoyed and appreciated than the expensive ones.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Happy Birthday Sean!!!
I can't believe 3 years have already passed since my dark haired little monster came into this world. I remember being scared about having a boy. After all, they are so differently equiped, LOL! And he is the sweetest little boy. Sean is so amazing because he is so fiercely independant and also a clingy mama's boy.
Yesterday, we took Noelle to her first "beauty appointment." Sean was heartbroken when the lady took away his No-welly and we went home without her. He was distracted by filling up the pool (it's 42 degrees with the humidity!) and later swimming but the sulkiness came back. After playing 20 questions i asked him if he missed Noelle and he pouted, "Doggie gone!" Boy did Noellle get hugs and kisses when she got home and when the kids realized it really was our dog.
So we're not doing a party for Sean but I was going to make a baseball themed cake and we were considering taking him to Build-a-Bear to get a baseball bear. So yesterday Mike calls on his way home from work and says that he got the damn bear. I was and still am sooo pissed that he managed to ruin the build a bear experience for me and sean. The whole damn point is to build the fucking bear!! He could have just bought one at toys r us, it will be just as meaningless. Anyway, not to sour the surprise but i'm very hurt.
So to somehow make up the bear fiasco to me. We are going shopping after work. So i get to go to get the girls' dresses and maybe a going home outfit for the new baby. It still doesn't feel like any kind of consolation, more like a pity date type thing than something to look forward to.
Happy birthday Seanie!! Mommy loves you!!
Yesterday, we took Noelle to her first "beauty appointment." Sean was heartbroken when the lady took away his No-welly and we went home without her. He was distracted by filling up the pool (it's 42 degrees with the humidity!) and later swimming but the sulkiness came back. After playing 20 questions i asked him if he missed Noelle and he pouted, "Doggie gone!" Boy did Noellle get hugs and kisses when she got home and when the kids realized it really was our dog.
So we're not doing a party for Sean but I was going to make a baseball themed cake and we were considering taking him to Build-a-Bear to get a baseball bear. So yesterday Mike calls on his way home from work and says that he got the damn bear. I was and still am sooo pissed that he managed to ruin the build a bear experience for me and sean. The whole damn point is to build the fucking bear!! He could have just bought one at toys r us, it will be just as meaningless. Anyway, not to sour the surprise but i'm very hurt.
So to somehow make up the bear fiasco to me. We are going shopping after work. So i get to go to get the girls' dresses and maybe a going home outfit for the new baby. It still doesn't feel like any kind of consolation, more like a pity date type thing than something to look forward to.
Happy birthday Seanie!! Mommy loves you!!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
You've been evicted, BWAHHHH!
Boy was i pissed off on Friday night when Mike put Flaming Leech aka. Sean in bed with us. Nothing like a 3 year old's scorching feet rubbing my bum, little fingers twirling my hair or the "suck, suck, suck" sound of little fingers at 2:50am when i have to get up for work at 5am!
So i read Mike the riot act because i was up basically from 2:50-4:15 when i bit the bullet and went to sleep on the couch. Last night I went to be extra early, 8:30pm, read some of The Boy and his Horse, the third Narnia book and passed out promptly by 9. I woke up around 1 am for one of many bathroom trips only to find Mike still playing Wrestling on the Xbox. Good luck to you today. So he stayed on the couch and the dog joined him,,,after shitting all over the house. I slept til after 5 when i had to get to work.
Today i go pick up the girls from Nana's. Betcha Mike and Sean will be comatosed by the time i get there. Its so nice to have the one on one time with Sean. Yesterday Mike and Sean played Street Fighter...I'm embarrassed to say i got beaten by a 3 year old. He's so well behaved when its only him.
So i read Mike the riot act because i was up basically from 2:50-4:15 when i bit the bullet and went to sleep on the couch. Last night I went to be extra early, 8:30pm, read some of The Boy and his Horse, the third Narnia book and passed out promptly by 9. I woke up around 1 am for one of many bathroom trips only to find Mike still playing Wrestling on the Xbox. Good luck to you today. So he stayed on the couch and the dog joined him,,,after shitting all over the house. I slept til after 5 when i had to get to work.
Today i go pick up the girls from Nana's. Betcha Mike and Sean will be comatosed by the time i get there. Its so nice to have the one on one time with Sean. Yesterday Mike and Sean played Street Fighter...I'm embarrassed to say i got beaten by a 3 year old. He's so well behaved when its only him.
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