I can't believe its been more than 2 months since i last updated. Well i guess having a new baby and not working (ie. not sitting infront of a puter for 8 hours a day), is a good excuse.
So Dylan was born on August 5 at 12:22am. He's been a good boy. He's now sleeping in nearly 6 hours stretches at night and that helps me feel human. I love having a baby in the house again and i wish he could just stay little. Then again i wish he'd change his own diapers too!
Emily is in grade 3 now. She's a very conscientious student and loves to read and write stories. She now wants to be an art teacher (last year was writer, year before was teacher). I have no doubt that she'll teach as well as do something creative. She's recently asked for an allowance so she now gets $10 per week for cleaning both bathrooms, as well as keeping her room clean and walking her sister to school if i can't get out the door on time. She's very strange for her age. The other day she asked her dad how much money he makes and always seems to worry if they'll be enough for whatever. It's strange because let's face it, my kids are spoiled brats. They get everything they want eventually.
Adrienne is now in senior kindergarten. I've decided to 'homeschool' her. She still goes to public school but i've decided that education here is sadly lacking so i've taken it upon myself to teach her to print and read. So we started printing our letters a few weeks ago. I figured it would save me grief if i made sure that she actually knew her letters before i started to teach her to read. Well holy crap she starts printing and her letters are backward. She confuses b and d, p and q, m and w, and i and l. Her numbers are backward too: 14 is written as 41. I spoke with her teacher and she said its too early to worry about it but this kid will be 5 next month, her shoes are always on the wrong feet, she doesn't know her right and left so i'm starting to think its more than that. I've read up on dyslexia and she does have alot of the signs, hopefully i'm just being paranoid and she'll figure it out.
Sean...oh where to start. His behavior has dramatically improved. He's potty training well...the first couple days were hell but he is peeing no problem. poo is a whole other story.
So we've been going to speech and practicing with him the last few month. His expressive language has improved by leaps and bounds. So i'm feeling pretty good when we had our assessment a few weeks ago. Right. He puked all over himself before the appt. (at home). We go there and he's just not answering the questions the ST is asking. So after about 10 minutes she gives up and starts talking about getting him tested to see if there are other issues that are impeding his speech. Somewhere in this spiel she throws out the word autism. That scares the shit out of me since my niece and nephew are both autistic and i tell her this. She quickly backtracks and says, no i don't think he's autistic....Well don't throw around diagnoses when you're not a doctor and you don't know what the fuck you're talking about!!!!
Okay, with that being the exception, the appt. was very informative because his receptive language (comprehension) is very low. So we've been spending at least a half hour a day sitting down with books, puzzles, games, whatever trying to teach him. This is in addition to everything we do being a learning experience...what color is the juice, what color is the garage door, higher/lower at park, what is this, what is that. I think he is making a little bit of progress.
Next appt is on friday so we'll see how it goes. If anything they'll give me a list of dr. that do testing in this area....
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Anti-Feminism
I've been reading various message boards for maybe 7 years now and i swear there is very little that surprises me. There are people that are just stupid. There are people that are (or present themselves) as rich and snotty or piss poor with a chip on their shoulder and act like the world owes them. Then there are those with radical thinking that really feel that the world should follow their lead....
I can't believe that in this day and age a women (and educated one) actually believes that a woman's place is in the home and her single solitary role is nurturing the children and being subservient to her spouse. Sometimes I think the women's movement did screw us over because costs of living and quality of life really depend on having 2 incomes--for most families anyway---but at least we still have a choice.
I don't get it really. The need of some women to remain constantly barefoot, pregnant and in the kitchen. To never move out of the infant/toddler stage. With me, on one hand I really feel that 4 is our number of children and i probably would have always regretted not trying but at the same time it is soooo much easier now with the older 3. We don't need to pack or plan for a trip, just grab an extra diaper and depending on where we are going, the stroller and we're off. I couldn't imagine spending year after year of married life with a bulging belly.
It really reminds me of the book A Room of One's Own (1929) by Virginia Woolf. Basically a woman not having time or a physical space to herself is a detriment to her writting. That all she needs is solitude to work on herself and her talents.
We went to Black Creek Pioneer Villiage a few weeks ago and in one of the homes there was a room strictly for men, the cigar room, where men were banished to get them out of the woman's hair. So, of course, I ask the guy where was the woman's room and he looked at me kinda stupidly and said the whole house was the woman's room. Really not a great trade off in my opinion since her space is shared with the entire household...yet still her responsibility to take care of and keep clean.
Sometimes I wish i had a place of my own. To do my crafts, to read, to just sit and watch the paint crack without little hands in everything. There really feels like there is nothing that is solely mine and realistically I have zero time to myself....
Anyway back to the regular scheduled rant. I can't believe that any woman would want to bring women back to the dark ages when they were solely dependant on her husband. I can't imagine living that way now. I mean, i spent $375 on kids' clothes a couple days ago. I'd hate to hold out my hand and ask like a child. That's fine for people that don't mind it, but i could never be dependant...ever!
I can't believe that in this day and age a women (and educated one) actually believes that a woman's place is in the home and her single solitary role is nurturing the children and being subservient to her spouse. Sometimes I think the women's movement did screw us over because costs of living and quality of life really depend on having 2 incomes--for most families anyway---but at least we still have a choice.
I don't get it really. The need of some women to remain constantly barefoot, pregnant and in the kitchen. To never move out of the infant/toddler stage. With me, on one hand I really feel that 4 is our number of children and i probably would have always regretted not trying but at the same time it is soooo much easier now with the older 3. We don't need to pack or plan for a trip, just grab an extra diaper and depending on where we are going, the stroller and we're off. I couldn't imagine spending year after year of married life with a bulging belly.
It really reminds me of the book A Room of One's Own (1929) by Virginia Woolf. Basically a woman not having time or a physical space to herself is a detriment to her writting. That all she needs is solitude to work on herself and her talents.
We went to Black Creek Pioneer Villiage a few weeks ago and in one of the homes there was a room strictly for men, the cigar room, where men were banished to get them out of the woman's hair. So, of course, I ask the guy where was the woman's room and he looked at me kinda stupidly and said the whole house was the woman's room. Really not a great trade off in my opinion since her space is shared with the entire household...yet still her responsibility to take care of and keep clean.
Sometimes I wish i had a place of my own. To do my crafts, to read, to just sit and watch the paint crack without little hands in everything. There really feels like there is nothing that is solely mine and realistically I have zero time to myself....
Anyway back to the regular scheduled rant. I can't believe that any woman would want to bring women back to the dark ages when they were solely dependant on her husband. I can't imagine living that way now. I mean, i spent $375 on kids' clothes a couple days ago. I'd hate to hold out my hand and ask like a child. That's fine for people that don't mind it, but i could never be dependant...ever!
Everyone thinks I'm nuts!
Guess what i did last Wednesday???!?! I actually piled the 3 Lil Monsters into the van along with the double stroller and off I went to Square One! I went to Gymboree, Old Navy, The Children's Place and Wal-mart and got almost everything I need for back to school/ winter clothing. Everyone said I'm nuts going alone at 9 months pregnant but ya know what, the kids were better for me alone than they ever are when Mike goes shopping with us. And now that i've redeemed my gymbucks and gotten the girls' first day of school outfits, I'm all clear to go into labour.
Funny, I never realized how expensive kids are until now. I'm a bargain shopper and usually get good deals, but even buying some stuff on clearance, it is rediculously expensive to outfit 4 kids that are constantly growing and outgrowing things. Mike's seriously anal too. "If i see any of those clothes on the floor they are going back!!!" Yeah, like they have any concept of how much things cost or the difference between Gymboree, TCP or Wal-martz clothes.
Funny, I never realized how expensive kids are until now. I'm a bargain shopper and usually get good deals, but even buying some stuff on clearance, it is rediculously expensive to outfit 4 kids that are constantly growing and outgrowing things. Mike's seriously anal too. "If i see any of those clothes on the floor they are going back!!!" Yeah, like they have any concept of how much things cost or the difference between Gymboree, TCP or Wal-martz clothes.
He's Stubborn Already!
I start having labor pains at 34 weeks...I'm thinking for sure this little guy will be making his way into the world already. No such luck! Even falling down the stairs didn't loosen him. So today I've made it to my last day at work and then i'm still not due for another 2 weeks! Hmm, Karin said 5 days early, Ang said 2...we'll see who is right!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Call me Ms. Fix it
Why, oh why does everything need to fall apart when i'm 9 months pregnant and ready to pop? Seriously, the lock on my front door is screwed, can't get the damn key in the door. I'm worried its going to snap and we'll be locked out. So instead of doing something fun, tomorrow i gotta run to Lowe's with the lunatics and get a lock.... Funny, i told mike and says its best that i go cuz i know what i'm looking for!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Going Shopping!!
Gymbucks redemption period!! Off to get back to school clothes.
http://www.gymboree.com/shop/dept_category.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374306238486&bmUID=1216564161327
I'm in love with the French "Petite Madmoiselle" line and Children's Place has a couple things on sale that i want.
Maybe i'll even go get groceries on the way!
Can't seem to get over the need to spend. Yes its a need. Maybe a strange sort of nesting instinct. I've already gotten 18 Christmas presents and only spent $125. I'm also compulsively planning my home reno to do list. Somehow homeschooling has fallen by the wayside. Oh well. I swear i need 36 hours in a day.
AND......
3 more weeks til baby is due!!
http://www.gymboree.com/shop/dept_category.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374306238486&bmUID=1216564161327
I'm in love with the French "Petite Madmoiselle" line and Children's Place has a couple things on sale that i want.
Maybe i'll even go get groceries on the way!
Can't seem to get over the need to spend. Yes its a need. Maybe a strange sort of nesting instinct. I've already gotten 18 Christmas presents and only spent $125. I'm also compulsively planning my home reno to do list. Somehow homeschooling has fallen by the wayside. Oh well. I swear i need 36 hours in a day.
AND......
3 more weeks til baby is due!!
madness at 9 months prego
Guess what i did at 9 months prego. PLUMBING! Had to replace my mother's leaking kitchen faucet. What a fucking disaster...the valves to shut off the water in the house don't work completely so water leaked and ended up going thru the ceiling in the basement. There was no hole in the sink that was predrilled...just a crudely made one that my father must have put in. After a couple trips to the store, nearly sweating to death in my mother's swealtering house and mike using a file to make the hole bigger, the faucet was in. Nothing like seening a 8 month prego woman crawling under the sink.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Still no baby
After insane contractions i was positive that this kid would make a beeline into this world. Walking, contractions, mike panic....and they stop until...
Monday, July 14, the first thing i do when i wake up in the morning is fall down the stairs. Not many, only about 5, land on my ass, gush a little something that turned out to be pee. So shaking like a leaf i go back to bed---i got up to put the latch on the door so Sean wouldn't open the door looking for mike and let the dog out.
I go back to bed and my back is killing..maybe an hour later i get shooting pains up my back but i figure its just from the fall. Mike comes home early, around 12:30 to check on my poor self. I'm laying on the couch looking like death, feeling all kinds of contractions. As reasonable as any man might be, mike suggests we go for a walk. I'm contracting anyway and if its time i might as well help the baby out quicker. Contractions are 6 minutes apart so we figure we'll pack up and head to the hospital.
We drop the kids off at ma's who's in tears. She's thinking the baby will fall out on the way and die or i'll die...whatever...in her mind having a baby is somehow equivalent to a terminal illness. We walk some more and head to L & D...
Must have been a full moon cuz L&D is swamped. I get in and get hooked up to the monitors. Contracting about 3-4 times in 10 minutes....sitting around for 3.5 hours in pain...no doctor to see me because she delivered 3 babies during this time. Finally comes to see me and checks...1 cm dialated, long, firm and baby still high. WTF?!?!??!?!? So i seriously spent 1 week in pain and this kid is firmly planted in there with no sign of budging!!!! Oh, i leave the hospital and am still contracting for the next 2 hours and then they just STOP!
I have an appointment with Dr. Addison the next day. Baby is measuring about 6-6.5 pounds. He's joking that it'll probably be late...... I'm thinking screw this..i'm making it to my last day at work...right now i got 6 shifts left...had hardly any contractions since i left the hospital!
Monday, July 14, the first thing i do when i wake up in the morning is fall down the stairs. Not many, only about 5, land on my ass, gush a little something that turned out to be pee. So shaking like a leaf i go back to bed---i got up to put the latch on the door so Sean wouldn't open the door looking for mike and let the dog out.
I go back to bed and my back is killing..maybe an hour later i get shooting pains up my back but i figure its just from the fall. Mike comes home early, around 12:30 to check on my poor self. I'm laying on the couch looking like death, feeling all kinds of contractions. As reasonable as any man might be, mike suggests we go for a walk. I'm contracting anyway and if its time i might as well help the baby out quicker. Contractions are 6 minutes apart so we figure we'll pack up and head to the hospital.
We drop the kids off at ma's who's in tears. She's thinking the baby will fall out on the way and die or i'll die...whatever...in her mind having a baby is somehow equivalent to a terminal illness. We walk some more and head to L & D...
Must have been a full moon cuz L&D is swamped. I get in and get hooked up to the monitors. Contracting about 3-4 times in 10 minutes....sitting around for 3.5 hours in pain...no doctor to see me because she delivered 3 babies during this time. Finally comes to see me and checks...1 cm dialated, long, firm and baby still high. WTF?!?!??!?!? So i seriously spent 1 week in pain and this kid is firmly planted in there with no sign of budging!!!! Oh, i leave the hospital and am still contracting for the next 2 hours and then they just STOP!
I have an appointment with Dr. Addison the next day. Baby is measuring about 6-6.5 pounds. He's joking that it'll probably be late...... I'm thinking screw this..i'm making it to my last day at work...right now i got 6 shifts left...had hardly any contractions since i left the hospital!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
The Simple Life
Its amazing how as parents we think are kids *need* so much more. They need trips to big, overadvertised places. They need expensive toys and gadgets. They need to be kept constantly busy and entertained. BUT...in reality they are soo much happier with the simple things in life.
Sunday night we took kids and puppy to Chinghousy Park. They ran around on the kids playground. Sean made friends with a little boy that was maybe a bit older. Adrienne just ran and ran like a chicken with her head cut off. Emily ran after her sister because we told them to stay together. After Adrienne pulled a Houdini and disappeared, we took them for a walk in the gardens and around the whole park back to the van. We went to get ice-cream at Dairy Queen but when we got there the line up was out the door and around the building! So we got them McDonald sundaes instead and for a few bucks they were all quite content!
Monday I worked, we didn't do anything but I called in sick on Tuesday and we went to Vaughan Mills and shopped. Mike pissed me off from the get go because he got tantruming Sean one of those huge firetruck strollers for $7. What a waste considering we did have our stroller with us and Sean was shit fitting to get out about 15 minutes later. We did get Brittany's birthday gifts, 3 pairs of PJ's on clearance at the Disney store for $22 and 2 jeans and 2 shirts for the girls at TCP for only $26! I love a deal!! However, i was ready to die halfway thru the mall. My toes kept cramping, i had contractions and my back was killing. I have never been happier to find the van and sit down!! We passed by Sam's Club and i sooooo wanted to go shopping but we didn't.
Wednesday i had to work but we figured we'd take the kids somewhere so we decided on the library. I made homemade chocolate chip muffins for breakfast first, mike got the kids bathed and off we went. The girls were so proud and grown up talking to the librarian to get their library cards. Emily got 3 chapter books and Adrienne got 3 picture books and i got one for Sean. We get back to the van and realize, we'd been gone for 2.5 hours! Sweet...and FREE, lol!! So Emily is "rationing" her reading because the books aren't due until July 30 then i told her we can go back before then if she's doneher books! It was great because i read a story to the kids while in the car waiting for mike to pick up a few things at the grocery store. Sean kept repeating what i was reading! Definately will try the homeschool thing with the littles...
So next on the agenda: Thursday (tomorrow) is my next Dr. appt. Thank god! I bet he'll tell me i'm starting to dialate and this baby will be here soon! Then we will be taking the kids to the drive-in to see Kung-Fu Panda! They are super excited about that!
Friday we plan to go to Black Creek Pioneer Villiage...inexpensive and not that far away and not too much walking. The weekend is up in the air...maybe swimming/picnic....
Sunday night we took kids and puppy to Chinghousy Park. They ran around on the kids playground. Sean made friends with a little boy that was maybe a bit older. Adrienne just ran and ran like a chicken with her head cut off. Emily ran after her sister because we told them to stay together. After Adrienne pulled a Houdini and disappeared, we took them for a walk in the gardens and around the whole park back to the van. We went to get ice-cream at Dairy Queen but when we got there the line up was out the door and around the building! So we got them McDonald sundaes instead and for a few bucks they were all quite content!
Monday I worked, we didn't do anything but I called in sick on Tuesday and we went to Vaughan Mills and shopped. Mike pissed me off from the get go because he got tantruming Sean one of those huge firetruck strollers for $7. What a waste considering we did have our stroller with us and Sean was shit fitting to get out about 15 minutes later. We did get Brittany's birthday gifts, 3 pairs of PJ's on clearance at the Disney store for $22 and 2 jeans and 2 shirts for the girls at TCP for only $26! I love a deal!! However, i was ready to die halfway thru the mall. My toes kept cramping, i had contractions and my back was killing. I have never been happier to find the van and sit down!! We passed by Sam's Club and i sooooo wanted to go shopping but we didn't.
Wednesday i had to work but we figured we'd take the kids somewhere so we decided on the library. I made homemade chocolate chip muffins for breakfast first, mike got the kids bathed and off we went. The girls were so proud and grown up talking to the librarian to get their library cards. Emily got 3 chapter books and Adrienne got 3 picture books and i got one for Sean. We get back to the van and realize, we'd been gone for 2.5 hours! Sweet...and FREE, lol!! So Emily is "rationing" her reading because the books aren't due until July 30 then i told her we can go back before then if she's doneher books! It was great because i read a story to the kids while in the car waiting for mike to pick up a few things at the grocery store. Sean kept repeating what i was reading! Definately will try the homeschool thing with the littles...
So next on the agenda: Thursday (tomorrow) is my next Dr. appt. Thank god! I bet he'll tell me i'm starting to dialate and this baby will be here soon! Then we will be taking the kids to the drive-in to see Kung-Fu Panda! They are super excited about that!
Friday we plan to go to Black Creek Pioneer Villiage...inexpensive and not that far away and not too much walking. The weekend is up in the air...maybe swimming/picnic....
Monday, July 7, 2008
Gotta blow some money--Homeschooling
Its July 7th already and the kids have been off school for almost 2 weeks and we've done NOTHING!
Okay, maybe not totally nothing, we did go to the Zoo and ching park and bike riding and swimming at the in-laws and the girls did get to spend quite a few days at Nannie's. But i feel like i've done nothing with them. I hate it. I feel so sorry for myself because by the time i get the cooking, cleaning, baking, laundry done, I'm exhausted. I can't walk because my back hurts, my feet/legs swell and i can't breathe.
Sooo I need to get organized. I need to "schedule" activities and stuff to do with the kids as well as learning. I'm thinking i'm going to do some shopping. Workbooks for Emily since teacher said she should practiced her math. Plus i ask emily if there's anywhere she wants to go for the summer and she say, "Can we go to Chapters?" Seriously, I think i'll get her her own library card.
I gotta start reading "Teach your child to read in 100 easy lessons" I bought it but let it sit on the counter for months. Adrienne is excited and keeps asking when she'll learn to read. Sean is starting to want to colour and look at books with his sisters. His speech is vastly improving and he really needs any kind of positive distraction from Mario.
Off to research and plan!
Okay, maybe not totally nothing, we did go to the Zoo and ching park and bike riding and swimming at the in-laws and the girls did get to spend quite a few days at Nannie's. But i feel like i've done nothing with them. I hate it. I feel so sorry for myself because by the time i get the cooking, cleaning, baking, laundry done, I'm exhausted. I can't walk because my back hurts, my feet/legs swell and i can't breathe.
Sooo I need to get organized. I need to "schedule" activities and stuff to do with the kids as well as learning. I'm thinking i'm going to do some shopping. Workbooks for Emily since teacher said she should practiced her math. Plus i ask emily if there's anywhere she wants to go for the summer and she say, "Can we go to Chapters?" Seriously, I think i'll get her her own library card.
I gotta start reading "Teach your child to read in 100 easy lessons" I bought it but let it sit on the counter for months. Adrienne is excited and keeps asking when she'll learn to read. Sean is starting to want to colour and look at books with his sisters. His speech is vastly improving and he really needs any kind of positive distraction from Mario.
Off to research and plan!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
The To-Do List....
Boy does this thing always grow. I'm down to crunch time with only 5 weeks left until baby. I am nearing the finish of his Christmas stocking...at least the main stitching, still have outlining and his name to do which i'm saving until the end when he's here and has his name.
I have to get my homeschooling organized. Adrienne didn't do to well on her reading on her report card so its time to get my butt in gear and get her at least where she should be by the time school starts in september.
Scrapbooking--who am i kidding! I've added at least 400 more pictures to the memory stick and haven't scrapped a darn page in months...
I really need a schedule. I guess that'll be hard to do until the baby arrives and is somewhat more predictable.
Now onto Home Renovations: I plan to sand and repaint the kitchen cabinets after dylan arrives, paint ceiling, walls and add the Florida lighting. At some point we will have a backsplash put it in, a new faucet and new appliances--stainless steel preferably but most likely white because its so much cheaper.
Living room: needs new flooring--God between the kids and dog the carpet is absolutely repulsive. Want to get rid of the tv cabinet and get one of those thin tv's.
Basement: Finishing it would be nice! I fully expected us to be debt free months ago and have money left over from the tax return to get the deck done out back BUT, tax money is not here yet but all of it is for debt. Deck won't be done this year so chances are basement will not be done next year Unless
Disney: we skip Disney next year. I want to go for my birthday!! Sean will be nearly 4, the girls will be older and more mature and Dylan will not be mobile yet so i think its a perfect time! Again, money...
I think the first thing on my list is to get a winning lottery ticket!!
I have to get my homeschooling organized. Adrienne didn't do to well on her reading on her report card so its time to get my butt in gear and get her at least where she should be by the time school starts in september.
Scrapbooking--who am i kidding! I've added at least 400 more pictures to the memory stick and haven't scrapped a darn page in months...
I really need a schedule. I guess that'll be hard to do until the baby arrives and is somewhat more predictable.
Now onto Home Renovations: I plan to sand and repaint the kitchen cabinets after dylan arrives, paint ceiling, walls and add the Florida lighting. At some point we will have a backsplash put it in, a new faucet and new appliances--stainless steel preferably but most likely white because its so much cheaper.
Living room: needs new flooring--God between the kids and dog the carpet is absolutely repulsive. Want to get rid of the tv cabinet and get one of those thin tv's.
Basement: Finishing it would be nice! I fully expected us to be debt free months ago and have money left over from the tax return to get the deck done out back BUT, tax money is not here yet but all of it is for debt. Deck won't be done this year so chances are basement will not be done next year Unless
Disney: we skip Disney next year. I want to go for my birthday!! Sean will be nearly 4, the girls will be older and more mature and Dylan will not be mobile yet so i think its a perfect time! Again, money...
I think the first thing on my list is to get a winning lottery ticket!!
Shopping
Here's a mental note to self...DO NOT GO SHOPPING WITH THE WHOLE FAMILY!! I go in with my trusty list and at the most $50 worth of stuff. I walk out with $133 of crap! Here's the real catch...wet dog food $9.99, dry dog food $14.99, the love of my puppy...Priceless, LOL!
5 More Weeks until Baby is Here!
I'm so freaking uncomfortable! Last night i went to bed at 7pm and slept til 5:15 when the alarm went off for the second time. It was heaven! I kicked Mike and the kids out to go bike riding, then they came back to watch at movie. My little boy came to tuck me in and kiss me good night.
As strange as it sounds, I can't wait for labour. It was a huge fear since the beginning but now i welcome it because i know that the pain will only last a few hours and I'll never have to do it again! At least i think.... Why do i keep dreaming about a 5th? WTF is wrong with me, i haven't even had the fourth yet!
As strange as it sounds, I can't wait for labour. It was a huge fear since the beginning but now i welcome it because i know that the pain will only last a few hours and I'll never have to do it again! At least i think.... Why do i keep dreaming about a 5th? WTF is wrong with me, i haven't even had the fourth yet!
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Everything's getting on my NERVES!
Oh who the hell has a baby in the summer?!?~? I'm exhausted and uncomfortable and everything hurts.
Kids annoy me...they (Adrienne) won't shut up. Sean wakes up too early. Mike is generally useless. My mother is a worry-wart crackpot that acts like i'm on life support, not pregnant.
So needless to say, everything gets on my nerves!
Mike's taking a week off of work. He's planning all this stuff to do. Algonquin park...canada's wonderland....center island. Hope he'll rent me my own stroller cuz there's no freaking way. Algonquin i'll go into labour and get stuck delivering among bears. Wonderland will be a waste of money if i can barely walk after a couple hours.... I feel soo useless....
Kids annoy me...they (Adrienne) won't shut up. Sean wakes up too early. Mike is generally useless. My mother is a worry-wart crackpot that acts like i'm on life support, not pregnant.
So needless to say, everything gets on my nerves!
Mike's taking a week off of work. He's planning all this stuff to do. Algonquin park...canada's wonderland....center island. Hope he'll rent me my own stroller cuz there's no freaking way. Algonquin i'll go into labour and get stuck delivering among bears. Wonderland will be a waste of money if i can barely walk after a couple hours.... I feel soo useless....
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
The benefits of Marriage??
Seriously, are there any because i have yet to find them?
He just doesn't fucking get it, at all! I'm pissed. I'm pissed at the whole spending money bullshit. I'm sick of the second class citizen treatment of telling me shit after the fact. I'm pissed at the complete fucking inequality and slavery in the house. I'm pissed at the lip service of shared ideas or goals that are alway agreed on but never happen, I'm just plain old fucking pissed. What happened this time?
Someone is planning a weekend baseball and invited 38 people I believe. Guess how i found out? I got a fucking invitation on facebook. A goddamn fucking invitation to my own fucking house on facebook!!!!!! So at 36 weeks or 9 months pregnant, king asshole is inviting 38 fucking people-excuse me 37 fucking people since i was one of the invitees--to my house...okay he'll argue about it technically being at the baseball diamond across the street but whose going to be stuck watching the kids? Whose going to be chasing Sean and preventing him from running into the road and getting hit by a car or running onto the field and getting hit in the head by a bat? Or keeping an eye on the girls? And I wouldn't have had a problem with the whole thing at all if he would actually speak to me ahead of time. Fuck him. Bastard acts like he's still single he might get more than what he bargained for.
He just doesn't fucking get it, at all! I'm pissed. I'm pissed at the whole spending money bullshit. I'm sick of the second class citizen treatment of telling me shit after the fact. I'm pissed at the complete fucking inequality and slavery in the house. I'm pissed at the lip service of shared ideas or goals that are alway agreed on but never happen, I'm just plain old fucking pissed. What happened this time?
Someone is planning a weekend baseball and invited 38 people I believe. Guess how i found out? I got a fucking invitation on facebook. A goddamn fucking invitation to my own fucking house on facebook!!!!!! So at 36 weeks or 9 months pregnant, king asshole is inviting 38 fucking people-excuse me 37 fucking people since i was one of the invitees--to my house...okay he'll argue about it technically being at the baseball diamond across the street but whose going to be stuck watching the kids? Whose going to be chasing Sean and preventing him from running into the road and getting hit by a car or running onto the field and getting hit in the head by a bat? Or keeping an eye on the girls? And I wouldn't have had a problem with the whole thing at all if he would actually speak to me ahead of time. Fuck him. Bastard acts like he's still single he might get more than what he bargained for.
Monday, June 30, 2008
the cure for what ails you
I've been really thinking about/planning what do when I'm off and the baby comes. Some days i can't wait but others...the kids drive me nuts, the house drives me nuts, the dog drives me nuts. I can really see some wicked PPD in my future but at the same time some of the simplest things make me so happy and take my mind off things.
I took this weekend off and i've been saying forever that i'll take a weekend off a month but i don't because god forbid i lose that one hour of overtime. Anyway, i got all housework done by friday and friday night we went shopping for emily's bike and a couple other things. We got home a bit late, 8:30 but the girls still got to ride their bikes up and down the road. Then we sat and just ate freezies, all five of us on the porch til almost 10pm.
Saturday i woke up relatively early (yet still slept in!) and got the baking finished, prepped the lasagna and was pissed that everyone else got to relax. But we packed up and off we went to the zoo. It was amazing because Sean was fascinated by the animals and was trying to say their names. We had lunch and went to the splash pad area. We seriously need a few more sets of eyes to keep track of these kids. 4.5 hours later. Sean was a basketcase and i was ready to lay down in the stroller. The girls were awesome though and we went home where i just layed there. Mike hooked up wireless in the house...
And downloaded a ton of Classic Nintendo games! Super mario bros., Zelda:A link to the past, Zelda:Ocarina of time, Castlevania, Super Mario 64, and Punch out! Holy crap is Sean in video game heaven....this kid is so freaking co-ordinated for a 3 year old. First thing he said this morning is "Mommy, I pay 'ario game?!"
And i feel soo refreshed! 4 days off. I just have Sean with me. YEsterday i visited Ma and she has both girls...I swear whenever she has the kids she sounds 15 years younger on the phone. We all went shopping and we will go appliance shopping on Thursday.
Today i took the clothesline out and put it up myself, did 2 loads of laundry and that was all i could handle. Babysteps, well that and the 10 trips to the garage to get rid of the recycling....
I took this weekend off and i've been saying forever that i'll take a weekend off a month but i don't because god forbid i lose that one hour of overtime. Anyway, i got all housework done by friday and friday night we went shopping for emily's bike and a couple other things. We got home a bit late, 8:30 but the girls still got to ride their bikes up and down the road. Then we sat and just ate freezies, all five of us on the porch til almost 10pm.
Saturday i woke up relatively early (yet still slept in!) and got the baking finished, prepped the lasagna and was pissed that everyone else got to relax. But we packed up and off we went to the zoo. It was amazing because Sean was fascinated by the animals and was trying to say their names. We had lunch and went to the splash pad area. We seriously need a few more sets of eyes to keep track of these kids. 4.5 hours later. Sean was a basketcase and i was ready to lay down in the stroller. The girls were awesome though and we went home where i just layed there. Mike hooked up wireless in the house...
And downloaded a ton of Classic Nintendo games! Super mario bros., Zelda:A link to the past, Zelda:Ocarina of time, Castlevania, Super Mario 64, and Punch out! Holy crap is Sean in video game heaven....this kid is so freaking co-ordinated for a 3 year old. First thing he said this morning is "Mommy, I pay 'ario game?!"
And i feel soo refreshed! 4 days off. I just have Sean with me. YEsterday i visited Ma and she has both girls...I swear whenever she has the kids she sounds 15 years younger on the phone. We all went shopping and we will go appliance shopping on Thursday.
Today i took the clothesline out and put it up myself, did 2 loads of laundry and that was all i could handle. Babysteps, well that and the 10 trips to the garage to get rid of the recycling....
Monday, June 23, 2008
Great weekend!
I always seem to bitch and complain about how boring and routine life is but when Mike suggests we do something, I'm always too tired to make the effort to do it.
On Saturday i worked the morning shift but after waking up at 5:30am (half hour late) and getting to work at 6:04am, driving about a litre of coffee, I was awake and revved up to do anything. So I get home and Mike suggests Wasaga Beach. Are you effing serious?? Yup! So we tell the kids we are going to the beach and they were so excited and just bouncing off the walls. We gathered towels and bathing suits, car keys and credit cards and off we went.
Kids were totally deflated when they realized that the beach is not next door, in fact it was just over an hour away. We get there and park the van, kids slip into bathing suits and off we go into the water.
Holy crap is it ever dirty!! The first 3-5 feet of water is in fact slugged, icky muddy water with sand floating on top. Sean was freaking out at first because he is seriously a germaphobe and Adrienne absolutely refused to get in that shit! They did get over it and as we went in deeper the water got a bit cleaner. They splashed around until Sean decided to drink the yuck stuff. Emily was digging for sludge underneath the water then running to the shore to make a castle.
We got out of the water for a bit and Mike and girls went to get some food while Sean and i cuddled in a towel and he stopped shivering. They return with food from Burger King and i swear every single seagull on that damn beach surrounded us. It reminded me of some book/story that i read of the young Russian couple that were chased by a pack of wolves and i believe the husband sacrificed his new bride to save his own skin... They completely surrounded us and watched every bite so intently. Sean took a mozzarella stick and put it on a frisby about 1 foot away didn't a damn bird swoop in and steal it!!!
So they all decide to go back in the water but i could see lightening in the distance so out we go. We figured we'd just get dressed and walk along the strips and see whats in the shops.... but the torrential downpour started so we hopped into the van. Mike got us all Dairy Queen and then we were off. We got home at 9:30pm and we had to dump the kids in the tub to clean the sludge off them. By the time we got them to bed it was after 10pm. You'd think they'd sleep....
Finally, i had a morning off but you'd think the kids would co-operate...I went to the bathroom at 2:20am, woke up to Noelle licking her stitches at 5:00am (she got the cone off!), Sean came in at 5:20, I went to his bed at 5:30, he and dog went back to his bed at 6:00, then work up girls by 6:20, I went back to my bed at that time, at 6:30 emily was in the bathroom brushing her teeth and asking what she should wear, made them all go downstairs and dozed off again til 8:30am.
We made Eggs Benedict for breakfast and i got to sew and just veg while mike went shopping around. Only problem was that i was having the contractions from hell all bloody morning! And i worked at 3pm. Can't wait til next weekend when i'm off. We're going to Centre Island!
On Saturday i worked the morning shift but after waking up at 5:30am (half hour late) and getting to work at 6:04am, driving about a litre of coffee, I was awake and revved up to do anything. So I get home and Mike suggests Wasaga Beach. Are you effing serious?? Yup! So we tell the kids we are going to the beach and they were so excited and just bouncing off the walls. We gathered towels and bathing suits, car keys and credit cards and off we went.
Kids were totally deflated when they realized that the beach is not next door, in fact it was just over an hour away. We get there and park the van, kids slip into bathing suits and off we go into the water.
Holy crap is it ever dirty!! The first 3-5 feet of water is in fact slugged, icky muddy water with sand floating on top. Sean was freaking out at first because he is seriously a germaphobe and Adrienne absolutely refused to get in that shit! They did get over it and as we went in deeper the water got a bit cleaner. They splashed around until Sean decided to drink the yuck stuff. Emily was digging for sludge underneath the water then running to the shore to make a castle.
We got out of the water for a bit and Mike and girls went to get some food while Sean and i cuddled in a towel and he stopped shivering. They return with food from Burger King and i swear every single seagull on that damn beach surrounded us. It reminded me of some book/story that i read of the young Russian couple that were chased by a pack of wolves and i believe the husband sacrificed his new bride to save his own skin... They completely surrounded us and watched every bite so intently. Sean took a mozzarella stick and put it on a frisby about 1 foot away didn't a damn bird swoop in and steal it!!!
So they all decide to go back in the water but i could see lightening in the distance so out we go. We figured we'd just get dressed and walk along the strips and see whats in the shops.... but the torrential downpour started so we hopped into the van. Mike got us all Dairy Queen and then we were off. We got home at 9:30pm and we had to dump the kids in the tub to clean the sludge off them. By the time we got them to bed it was after 10pm. You'd think they'd sleep....
Finally, i had a morning off but you'd think the kids would co-operate...I went to the bathroom at 2:20am, woke up to Noelle licking her stitches at 5:00am (she got the cone off!), Sean came in at 5:20, I went to his bed at 5:30, he and dog went back to his bed at 6:00, then work up girls by 6:20, I went back to my bed at that time, at 6:30 emily was in the bathroom brushing her teeth and asking what she should wear, made them all go downstairs and dozed off again til 8:30am.
We made Eggs Benedict for breakfast and i got to sew and just veg while mike went shopping around. Only problem was that i was having the contractions from hell all bloody morning! And i worked at 3pm. Can't wait til next weekend when i'm off. We're going to Centre Island!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Baby #5
Maybe I do have more ramblings left in me. Why the hell am i dreaming about a 5th kid when i haven't even popped out the 4th?? Seriously, i've never even considered 5 children. Suddenly, i keep having dreams about her. Her because #5 is a baby girl, I called her Ashlyn and she's all decked out in a beautiful pink dress.
I told mike to hurry up and get the boys snipped. He's got a consult at some point in september but it takes at least a couple months to get the procedure done after that. Why do i get the feeling that Dylan will have an Irish twin? Ya know, i know i'll be sad when my baby days are over but i can't have a 5th. I need money. I need to work. To save for the kids education, our retirement, pay down the mortgage, buy a bigger house to have rooms for crazy kids and wonderpets. Is it just dealing with my childbearing years being done or is there really another little girl that is meant to be part of our family??
I told mike to hurry up and get the boys snipped. He's got a consult at some point in september but it takes at least a couple months to get the procedure done after that. Why do i get the feeling that Dylan will have an Irish twin? Ya know, i know i'll be sad when my baby days are over but i can't have a 5th. I need money. I need to work. To save for the kids education, our retirement, pay down the mortgage, buy a bigger house to have rooms for crazy kids and wonderpets. Is it just dealing with my childbearing years being done or is there really another little girl that is meant to be part of our family??
Little bit of everything....
Well its been a horrible freaking week. Mike's been stressed out at work. I've been stressed out at work. The kids are monsters. Great-Nan is in the hospital following Monday's surgery. All around its been a little bit of everything.
There's good news on the money front....We will be getting mike's tax refund by June 23 so the line of credit will be paid off then. My shopping spree cost way more than $1000. About $400 was just clothing for the girls and about $150 on christmas gifts. I sent almost $650 yesterday to pay off my old Visa and racked up over $450 on new one...Still have to get baby's crib set and Emily's new bike.
Took Sean to the doctors with me on Thursday. He was pretty good. Still doesn't quite gett that there's a baby in my tummy. I weigh a whopping 146 lbs with 8 solid weeks to go. Ma's hoping i'll hit 153 which is what she was when i was born.... Then we managed to get from EGH to Adrienne's school in 17 minutes because she was devestated about missing water day.
I think i have 25 shifts left to work and the kids have 1.5 weeks of school left. I can't freaking wait. I love being at home...not dealing with the chaos all day but at least sleeping and feeling able to cope with the chaos. When i'm off i go to bed early and wake up early. The mornings go so much more smoothly and i can get stuff done and then relax in the afternoon.
Anyhoo, not much left to ramble about, so signing off for now....
There's good news on the money front....We will be getting mike's tax refund by June 23 so the line of credit will be paid off then. My shopping spree cost way more than $1000. About $400 was just clothing for the girls and about $150 on christmas gifts. I sent almost $650 yesterday to pay off my old Visa and racked up over $450 on new one...Still have to get baby's crib set and Emily's new bike.
Took Sean to the doctors with me on Thursday. He was pretty good. Still doesn't quite gett that there's a baby in my tummy. I weigh a whopping 146 lbs with 8 solid weeks to go. Ma's hoping i'll hit 153 which is what she was when i was born.... Then we managed to get from EGH to Adrienne's school in 17 minutes because she was devestated about missing water day.
I think i have 25 shifts left to work and the kids have 1.5 weeks of school left. I can't freaking wait. I love being at home...not dealing with the chaos all day but at least sleeping and feeling able to cope with the chaos. When i'm off i go to bed early and wake up early. The mornings go so much more smoothly and i can get stuff done and then relax in the afternoon.
Anyhoo, not much left to ramble about, so signing off for now....
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Feeling Guilty
Yesterday we did our planned shopping trip. We get to Square One and get the sleepy brats into the stroller. This lasts about 3.5 seconds, or the middle of Sears, til Sean freaks to get out and "go that way!" He lays down in the middle of the high traffic isle til Mike picked him up by his overalls and carries him like shopping bag. Everyone seeing this is laughing their heads off including me. People look at us like we're nuts because their counting children and bulging belly.
I finally him Gymboree. OMG so did every other asshole in the GTA. They only had one of the dress that i wanted in Adrienne's size, not Emily's. The store was in chaos and seriously Canadian prices suck! Our dollar is almost par with the American and online the dresses start at $34 but in Canada they are $46. Anyhoo, got my clothes but one of Emily's doesn't fit--boo hoo. I'm going to make Mike exchange it. Bought more sensible priced clothing at the Children's Place--again one of Emily's shirts is too big so i'll be exchanging today after work... I swear i'm just going to shop online and with Emily Only!!!
Sean was a demon shit so we didn't go to Chuck E Cheese as originally planned. We get home so mike give Sean the $75 build a bear...Yikes!! He opened the box, said "oooohhhh, baseball bear. (pause) I go play game." Tossed it on the floor and left. Mike was so hurt, he went to mow the lawn. I did get to say I told you so but i felt bad for him. I guess neither of us won on this one. I remember Adrienne's face lighting up at her 3rd birthday getting "Three Bear," she's slept with it ever since. Emily lost her original 'Kristina Bear' in Florida and was devastated til mike replaced it with a new and clean Krissy. Whatever, Mike's right. We try too hard. Kids don't give a shit. I said to give it to the new baby. Sean got his birthday wish, he played with the Wii. Sometimes i don't get why we spend money, I mean the free or cheap stuff is so much more enjoyed and appreciated than the expensive ones.
I finally him Gymboree. OMG so did every other asshole in the GTA. They only had one of the dress that i wanted in Adrienne's size, not Emily's. The store was in chaos and seriously Canadian prices suck! Our dollar is almost par with the American and online the dresses start at $34 but in Canada they are $46. Anyhoo, got my clothes but one of Emily's doesn't fit--boo hoo. I'm going to make Mike exchange it. Bought more sensible priced clothing at the Children's Place--again one of Emily's shirts is too big so i'll be exchanging today after work... I swear i'm just going to shop online and with Emily Only!!!
Sean was a demon shit so we didn't go to Chuck E Cheese as originally planned. We get home so mike give Sean the $75 build a bear...Yikes!! He opened the box, said "oooohhhh, baseball bear. (pause) I go play game." Tossed it on the floor and left. Mike was so hurt, he went to mow the lawn. I did get to say I told you so but i felt bad for him. I guess neither of us won on this one. I remember Adrienne's face lighting up at her 3rd birthday getting "Three Bear," she's slept with it ever since. Emily lost her original 'Kristina Bear' in Florida and was devastated til mike replaced it with a new and clean Krissy. Whatever, Mike's right. We try too hard. Kids don't give a shit. I said to give it to the new baby. Sean got his birthday wish, he played with the Wii. Sometimes i don't get why we spend money, I mean the free or cheap stuff is so much more enjoyed and appreciated than the expensive ones.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Happy Birthday Sean!!!
I can't believe 3 years have already passed since my dark haired little monster came into this world. I remember being scared about having a boy. After all, they are so differently equiped, LOL! And he is the sweetest little boy. Sean is so amazing because he is so fiercely independant and also a clingy mama's boy.
Yesterday, we took Noelle to her first "beauty appointment." Sean was heartbroken when the lady took away his No-welly and we went home without her. He was distracted by filling up the pool (it's 42 degrees with the humidity!) and later swimming but the sulkiness came back. After playing 20 questions i asked him if he missed Noelle and he pouted, "Doggie gone!" Boy did Noellle get hugs and kisses when she got home and when the kids realized it really was our dog.
So we're not doing a party for Sean but I was going to make a baseball themed cake and we were considering taking him to Build-a-Bear to get a baseball bear. So yesterday Mike calls on his way home from work and says that he got the damn bear. I was and still am sooo pissed that he managed to ruin the build a bear experience for me and sean. The whole damn point is to build the fucking bear!! He could have just bought one at toys r us, it will be just as meaningless. Anyway, not to sour the surprise but i'm very hurt.
So to somehow make up the bear fiasco to me. We are going shopping after work. So i get to go to get the girls' dresses and maybe a going home outfit for the new baby. It still doesn't feel like any kind of consolation, more like a pity date type thing than something to look forward to.
Happy birthday Seanie!! Mommy loves you!!
Yesterday, we took Noelle to her first "beauty appointment." Sean was heartbroken when the lady took away his No-welly and we went home without her. He was distracted by filling up the pool (it's 42 degrees with the humidity!) and later swimming but the sulkiness came back. After playing 20 questions i asked him if he missed Noelle and he pouted, "Doggie gone!" Boy did Noellle get hugs and kisses when she got home and when the kids realized it really was our dog.
So we're not doing a party for Sean but I was going to make a baseball themed cake and we were considering taking him to Build-a-Bear to get a baseball bear. So yesterday Mike calls on his way home from work and says that he got the damn bear. I was and still am sooo pissed that he managed to ruin the build a bear experience for me and sean. The whole damn point is to build the fucking bear!! He could have just bought one at toys r us, it will be just as meaningless. Anyway, not to sour the surprise but i'm very hurt.
So to somehow make up the bear fiasco to me. We are going shopping after work. So i get to go to get the girls' dresses and maybe a going home outfit for the new baby. It still doesn't feel like any kind of consolation, more like a pity date type thing than something to look forward to.
Happy birthday Seanie!! Mommy loves you!!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
You've been evicted, BWAHHHH!
Boy was i pissed off on Friday night when Mike put Flaming Leech aka. Sean in bed with us. Nothing like a 3 year old's scorching feet rubbing my bum, little fingers twirling my hair or the "suck, suck, suck" sound of little fingers at 2:50am when i have to get up for work at 5am!
So i read Mike the riot act because i was up basically from 2:50-4:15 when i bit the bullet and went to sleep on the couch. Last night I went to be extra early, 8:30pm, read some of The Boy and his Horse, the third Narnia book and passed out promptly by 9. I woke up around 1 am for one of many bathroom trips only to find Mike still playing Wrestling on the Xbox. Good luck to you today. So he stayed on the couch and the dog joined him,,,after shitting all over the house. I slept til after 5 when i had to get to work.
Today i go pick up the girls from Nana's. Betcha Mike and Sean will be comatosed by the time i get there. Its so nice to have the one on one time with Sean. Yesterday Mike and Sean played Street Fighter...I'm embarrassed to say i got beaten by a 3 year old. He's so well behaved when its only him.
So i read Mike the riot act because i was up basically from 2:50-4:15 when i bit the bullet and went to sleep on the couch. Last night I went to be extra early, 8:30pm, read some of The Boy and his Horse, the third Narnia book and passed out promptly by 9. I woke up around 1 am for one of many bathroom trips only to find Mike still playing Wrestling on the Xbox. Good luck to you today. So he stayed on the couch and the dog joined him,,,after shitting all over the house. I slept til after 5 when i had to get to work.
Today i go pick up the girls from Nana's. Betcha Mike and Sean will be comatosed by the time i get there. Its so nice to have the one on one time with Sean. Yesterday Mike and Sean played Street Fighter...I'm embarrassed to say i got beaten by a 3 year old. He's so well behaved when its only him.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Shop til you drop!!
So when i say i've got the urge to spend money, I'm sooo not kidding. We went to the Samko & Miko Toy Warehouse sale. I got a Spider-man patio set, baby bouncy seat, plug in video game, soccor ball, plastic character dishes and a few books for now.
For Christmas i already have 10 gifts now.
Sean: another plug in game, lights/sound car, superman coloring set.
Emily: wall puzzle, 4 books (kim possible & lizzy mcguire), Anne of Green gables hardcover, Birthstone collectable barbie,
Adrienne: Mermaid bath toy, dora puzzle, guess who game.
Me: birthstone barbie
And total spent was $167!
We went to Sam's club afterward and stocked up on food stuff, detergent and drinks. Only one fun thing...National Treasure 2, that's it and the grand total was $225. Somehow mike didn't mind filling up the van, LOL!
They also have a CD player alarm clock on clearance at wal-mart for $39. However, we also have 2 cd players we don't use anyway so i might save myself the money.
Emily made it clear yesterday that she's totally not interested in any toys, except her build a bear.
Wow, writing this down makes me feel insane. Emily's also been asking me when we are going on another girls' shopping spree. Only place left to hit is gymboree......
For Christmas i already have 10 gifts now.
Sean: another plug in game, lights/sound car, superman coloring set.
Emily: wall puzzle, 4 books (kim possible & lizzy mcguire), Anne of Green gables hardcover, Birthstone collectable barbie,
Adrienne: Mermaid bath toy, dora puzzle, guess who game.
Me: birthstone barbie
And total spent was $167!
We went to Sam's club afterward and stocked up on food stuff, detergent and drinks. Only one fun thing...National Treasure 2, that's it and the grand total was $225. Somehow mike didn't mind filling up the van, LOL!
They also have a CD player alarm clock on clearance at wal-mart for $39. However, we also have 2 cd players we don't use anyway so i might save myself the money.
Emily made it clear yesterday that she's totally not interested in any toys, except her build a bear.
Wow, writing this down makes me feel insane. Emily's also been asking me when we are going on another girls' shopping spree. Only place left to hit is gymboree......
Monday, May 26, 2008
The Responsible, Highly Domestic Mamahen
I've bitched for years that I absolutely hate routine and the domestic life and you know what. I find myself making things more routine! How ironic is that! My cleaning is done in a system, on a certain day or by a certain day. Like sheets, i've been changing them on Sunday afternoon now so mike can lug all the laundry down for me. He looks at me like i've gone insane but it needs to get done dammit!
So all the things i've said i'd get done before/when baby is here i'm actually keeping true to my word. This morning i baked my first batch of a dozen muffins. Of course by the time i left for work there was only 5 left so chances are, i still have nothing to give the kids for a snack tomorrow. But i've been doing well. We've cut a good chunk of the crap out of the grocery budget but now i have another thing on the to-do list.
Speaking of lists, i've begun my christmas shopping. How insane~ and someone on the internet says they keep a spreadsheet with all the items, price paid, amount saved etc. OMG why didn't i think of that.
So Emily's list goes something like this:
CD player (2nd big gift)
3 cds, HSM, Hannah Montana, Avril Lavigne
American Girl boxset
American Girl doll (her big gift)
High School Musical 1 + 2
Considering some type of jewellry
Video game (probably for Wiii)
Clothes
She's sooo over toys...
Adrienne:
no idea really, dolls, art stuff, video game, clothes,
already got her a water barbie doll for $4.94
Sean:
car stuff, or anything else with wheels
Baby:
not much
See how equally focussed on the kids i am. Maybe its overcompensating for the fact that i don't get along with Emily very well. That's probably not the right way to put it but she's so introverted whereas the other kids let u know everything they are thinking right then and there!
Not sure if i mentioned in my last post that we are cancelling all vacations this year~~DisneyWorld, Sherkston Beach, anywhere else~~ we're just going to stay local and do day trips to Wonderland, CenterIsland and Zoo after baby is here. Back to that whole responsible thing and to save money. Being a grown-up sucks *Pout**Stamp*LOL!!
So all the things i've said i'd get done before/when baby is here i'm actually keeping true to my word. This morning i baked my first batch of a dozen muffins. Of course by the time i left for work there was only 5 left so chances are, i still have nothing to give the kids for a snack tomorrow. But i've been doing well. We've cut a good chunk of the crap out of the grocery budget but now i have another thing on the to-do list.
Speaking of lists, i've begun my christmas shopping. How insane~ and someone on the internet says they keep a spreadsheet with all the items, price paid, amount saved etc. OMG why didn't i think of that.
So Emily's list goes something like this:
CD player (2nd big gift)
3 cds, HSM, Hannah Montana, Avril Lavigne
American Girl boxset
American Girl doll (her big gift)
High School Musical 1 + 2
Considering some type of jewellry
Video game (probably for Wiii)
Clothes
She's sooo over toys...
Adrienne:
no idea really, dolls, art stuff, video game, clothes,
already got her a water barbie doll for $4.94
Sean:
car stuff, or anything else with wheels
Baby:
not much
See how equally focussed on the kids i am. Maybe its overcompensating for the fact that i don't get along with Emily very well. That's probably not the right way to put it but she's so introverted whereas the other kids let u know everything they are thinking right then and there!
Not sure if i mentioned in my last post that we are cancelling all vacations this year~~DisneyWorld, Sherkston Beach, anywhere else~~ we're just going to stay local and do day trips to Wonderland, CenterIsland and Zoo after baby is here. Back to that whole responsible thing and to save money. Being a grown-up sucks *Pout**Stamp*LOL!!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Sean update and other domestic ramblings....
Well i really see early retirement in our future not necessarily due to savy investing or winning the lottery but that boy of mine will be a pro-baseball player! Daddy bought him a bat and ball from cleveland--better than using the rolling pin!-- and this kid just goes to town. He's got a great swing and really keeps his eye on the ball. When he says Mummy, catch it you best look up cuz he's pitching at your head!
He's been behaving alot better. I'm avoiding triggers now. All this week i haven't been taking the girls to school. They're proud to walk alone and i can see them from the driveway so its okay. Sean and i do spend more time together whether its baseballing, watching movies or just cuddling. Yesterday we go to fortino's and as soon as we get there he's starting a shit-fit because he wanted to sit in the cart. I'd deliberately taken one that you can't sit in so i wouldn't have to lift him. So i grab a bag of not frozen freezies for him to help with. He helped put everything in the cart and push it and he didn't even go nuts for chocolate. We were in and out in 45 minutes with no freak out!
So we get home and i decide to forgo the van and take Sean and Noelle to pick up Adrienne. Poor Noelle hadn't been out for a walk in weeks so she's trying to gallop ahead of me, too bad for the leash and harness. Surprisingly, Sean listened and went home semi-cooperatively. We were going to bake cookies, banana muffins, and make homemade pizza with chicken wings.
I measure all the cookie ingredients, eat lunch with kids and start my mixing. Not 5 minutes into it my mixer starts smoking and goes Poof! Damn it!! I guess that's what you get when you buy $10 wal-mart appliances! So i move the cookie dough to another dish, get pizza dough started as i walk to wal-mart to get new mixer and pans and Wii-fit. I ready to die by the time we get there and still have to get everything and walk back. i took the stroller b/c i didn't want to chance sean freaking in the electronics section....drag fat preggo ass home and then start baking, cooking and doing dishes. Thought my feet, back, and gut would fall off....But i now own 10 different baking pans, LOL! Mike said i'm a totally dork and the simplest things make me happy. It's true. Right now i'm working on baby's Christmas stocking and am giving myself 9 weeks until i'm done work to finish it.
He's been behaving alot better. I'm avoiding triggers now. All this week i haven't been taking the girls to school. They're proud to walk alone and i can see them from the driveway so its okay. Sean and i do spend more time together whether its baseballing, watching movies or just cuddling. Yesterday we go to fortino's and as soon as we get there he's starting a shit-fit because he wanted to sit in the cart. I'd deliberately taken one that you can't sit in so i wouldn't have to lift him. So i grab a bag of not frozen freezies for him to help with. He helped put everything in the cart and push it and he didn't even go nuts for chocolate. We were in and out in 45 minutes with no freak out!
So we get home and i decide to forgo the van and take Sean and Noelle to pick up Adrienne. Poor Noelle hadn't been out for a walk in weeks so she's trying to gallop ahead of me, too bad for the leash and harness. Surprisingly, Sean listened and went home semi-cooperatively. We were going to bake cookies, banana muffins, and make homemade pizza with chicken wings.
I measure all the cookie ingredients, eat lunch with kids and start my mixing. Not 5 minutes into it my mixer starts smoking and goes Poof! Damn it!! I guess that's what you get when you buy $10 wal-mart appliances! So i move the cookie dough to another dish, get pizza dough started as i walk to wal-mart to get new mixer and pans and Wii-fit. I ready to die by the time we get there and still have to get everything and walk back. i took the stroller b/c i didn't want to chance sean freaking in the electronics section....drag fat preggo ass home and then start baking, cooking and doing dishes. Thought my feet, back, and gut would fall off....But i now own 10 different baking pans, LOL! Mike said i'm a totally dork and the simplest things make me happy. It's true. Right now i'm working on baby's Christmas stocking and am giving myself 9 weeks until i'm done work to finish it.
Call me Flamingo--B-day continued...
So i get home from work to a spotlessly clean house and shampooed carpets. I'm in domestic heaven!! Kim pops over at 5:30 to watch the kids and we are out the door like bats out of hell for out bi-yearly night out without children.
We get to Mandarin and bi-pass the oodles of hungry people waiting for a table without a reservation and got right to eat. Its all you can eat crab night and mike's just pigging out, me and baby are all over the place. Mike keeps telling me that we'll stay out til exactly 8pm cuz its so few and far between that we get away from kids (hint flew over the cuckoo nest, LOL). Eating continues, many trips to the buffet, he goes to the bathroom and falls in (didn't notice, figured he's making room for more crab). We get to the car, caution to the wind i'm having my birthday cigarette but i sit in the car, he stands behind it (I think nothing of it!). Since we still have time we go look at houses in Peel Villiage--yeah right there's no immigrants there!
Finally we get home. I walk in the door and everyone screams "SURPRISE!!!!" hOLY cRAP!! I had no idea! I seriously believed the party was cancelled because of the long weekend! It was so sweet and the kids were so excited cuz they really surprised me and they did a fabulous job of decorating the house.
So we spent the evening chatting and chilling out. Oh and Noelle got drunk. Too funny, people kept giving her beer and the stupid dog didn't want to go to sleep with sean as she normally does she kept going right down to her beer pimp til she walked into the patio table!
All in all it was a great night and i had a fabulous 30th birthday--i'll ignore the fact that now i'm old!
We get to Mandarin and bi-pass the oodles of hungry people waiting for a table without a reservation and got right to eat. Its all you can eat crab night and mike's just pigging out, me and baby are all over the place. Mike keeps telling me that we'll stay out til exactly 8pm cuz its so few and far between that we get away from kids (hint flew over the cuckoo nest, LOL). Eating continues, many trips to the buffet, he goes to the bathroom and falls in (didn't notice, figured he's making room for more crab). We get to the car, caution to the wind i'm having my birthday cigarette but i sit in the car, he stands behind it (I think nothing of it!). Since we still have time we go look at houses in Peel Villiage--yeah right there's no immigrants there!
Finally we get home. I walk in the door and everyone screams "SURPRISE!!!!" hOLY cRAP!! I had no idea! I seriously believed the party was cancelled because of the long weekend! It was so sweet and the kids were so excited cuz they really surprised me and they did a fabulous job of decorating the house.
So we spent the evening chatting and chilling out. Oh and Noelle got drunk. Too funny, people kept giving her beer and the stupid dog didn't want to go to sleep with sean as she normally does she kept going right down to her beer pimp til she walked into the patio table!
All in all it was a great night and i had a fabulous 30th birthday--i'll ignore the fact that now i'm old!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Happy Birthday to Me!
So now i'm officially old"er" the big 3-0. Scary but not that scary since i feel 40 with 3.5 kids, 4.5 if you count the husband, dog, mortgage and other domestic crap. So what did i do??
What anywoman would do...go shopping...AT Wal-Mart, LOL! Sad huh?? Dying to know what exciting thing i purchase...well i bought meself a waffleiron, recipe book, bake pan, new sandle for the girls and running shoes for E, and a new purse to replace the one the dog ruined, oh and of course food for the mutt! Then i went to chapters and got the book "the explosive child" (see next post), and "Goodnight moon" for sean/adrienne.
I came home to sean screaming like a lunatic all the way home but when i got there, my Chapters order had been left on the porch....American Girls, Kirsten, and Teach your Child to Read in 100 easy lessons. See, all the cool stuff i bought myself, LOL!
So i nap, and cook, and bake (this was the day before my birthday). The day of my birthday, i cook, and do laundry, and cook more, and clean the coke leaking out of the freezer because a can exploded (thanks honey!), and take out the massive amount of trash that i find the day after garbage day. So i'm thinking dinner will be early. Right, Mike's worse than a woman by the time everything was done it was too late to go out. He thinks i'm insane because its only 6:30pm but everything takes forever when you try to get 5 people out the door.
He did get me 30 red roses and we are going out for dinner today, without the children!!
What anywoman would do...go shopping...AT Wal-Mart, LOL! Sad huh?? Dying to know what exciting thing i purchase...well i bought meself a waffleiron, recipe book, bake pan, new sandle for the girls and running shoes for E, and a new purse to replace the one the dog ruined, oh and of course food for the mutt! Then i went to chapters and got the book "the explosive child" (see next post), and "Goodnight moon" for sean/adrienne.
I came home to sean screaming like a lunatic all the way home but when i got there, my Chapters order had been left on the porch....American Girls, Kirsten, and Teach your Child to Read in 100 easy lessons. See, all the cool stuff i bought myself, LOL!
So i nap, and cook, and bake (this was the day before my birthday). The day of my birthday, i cook, and do laundry, and cook more, and clean the coke leaking out of the freezer because a can exploded (thanks honey!), and take out the massive amount of trash that i find the day after garbage day. So i'm thinking dinner will be early. Right, Mike's worse than a woman by the time everything was done it was too late to go out. He thinks i'm insane because its only 6:30pm but everything takes forever when you try to get 5 people out the door.
He did get me 30 red roses and we are going out for dinner today, without the children!!
Sean's Behavioral Issues
Tuesday must have been one of the most horrible mornings of my life with this kid. First he wanted to go to the park, then we took the long way down the path from the other school and then the little shit decided he wanted to go to wal-mart. No matter what i said or did he wouldn't budge. HE was screaming, i was yelling at him, some fucker in the school was yelling something probably at me and at that point i was hoping they'd call children's aid cuz i was ready to leave Sean on the side of the road and just go home.
I'm so sick to death of him acting psychotic, of the fucking stares and people shaking their heads like they've never seen a screaming/tantruming kid. I'm sick of the 10 minute round trip walk taking 25 minutes (on a good day) to 1 hour (like tuesday).
Funny, i saw Diane (the lady that lives down the street) on Friday and she was like OMG are you pregnant?!?!?!? No wonder you didn't just lift him and carry him home the other day. No shit but thanks at least i'm still skinny, LOL!
Anyway i spent the entire day just pissed off and stressed out---things continued with Sean and later the other kids. And the fucking dog ate Adrienne's new sandles (and Emily's sandles, and my dress shoes, and my purse).
So i'm seriously considering having Sean evaluated by a behavioral psychologist. Mike suggested it, diane asked about, so did everyone else that has come into contact with Sean lately or heard the stories.
I'm torn though. I want him to be normal but i'm just terrified of them attaching some label to him or wanting to medicate. i just don't know how to deal with him to make things better (more often). Some days he's great and reasonable but others he flies off the handle so easily that its frightening to watch especially when he is hitting, biting or kicking.
I'm reading a book, "The Explosive Child" by Ross W. Greene and it really reiterates that conventional discipline will not work with a child like Sean and sticking to it won't make things better just more frustrating for him and us.
Karin says the same thing, is it just an age/personality thing (ie. stubborn/strong-willed), partly due to the speech issues or is it really a behavioral/psychological issue. I don't know, i guess it won't hurt to have him evaluated especially since its done thru ErinOak, the speech place. I'm terrified of what he'll be like when the baby is born and I hope that he can grow out of this phase before he starts school.
I'm so sick to death of him acting psychotic, of the fucking stares and people shaking their heads like they've never seen a screaming/tantruming kid. I'm sick of the 10 minute round trip walk taking 25 minutes (on a good day) to 1 hour (like tuesday).
Funny, i saw Diane (the lady that lives down the street) on Friday and she was like OMG are you pregnant?!?!?!? No wonder you didn't just lift him and carry him home the other day. No shit but thanks at least i'm still skinny, LOL!
Anyway i spent the entire day just pissed off and stressed out---things continued with Sean and later the other kids. And the fucking dog ate Adrienne's new sandles (and Emily's sandles, and my dress shoes, and my purse).
So i'm seriously considering having Sean evaluated by a behavioral psychologist. Mike suggested it, diane asked about, so did everyone else that has come into contact with Sean lately or heard the stories.
I'm torn though. I want him to be normal but i'm just terrified of them attaching some label to him or wanting to medicate. i just don't know how to deal with him to make things better (more often). Some days he's great and reasonable but others he flies off the handle so easily that its frightening to watch especially when he is hitting, biting or kicking.
I'm reading a book, "The Explosive Child" by Ross W. Greene and it really reiterates that conventional discipline will not work with a child like Sean and sticking to it won't make things better just more frustrating for him and us.
Karin says the same thing, is it just an age/personality thing (ie. stubborn/strong-willed), partly due to the speech issues or is it really a behavioral/psychological issue. I don't know, i guess it won't hurt to have him evaluated especially since its done thru ErinOak, the speech place. I'm terrified of what he'll be like when the baby is born and I hope that he can grow out of this phase before he starts school.
Mother's Day
What a horrible day that turned out to be. I went to bed early and mike actually slept in Sean's room to keep him quiet. I got close to 10 hours sleep before having to go to work at 5:30am. So i'm feeling pretty good, the hotel was dead so i started sewing at 10am and sewing....Get home for 3:30 knowing that Mike will be leaving for his business trip to Cleveland.
I get home to see him scrubbing the potty in the kitchen sink! No it wasn't ever used to poo or pee in, actually is just an expensive stepping stool that plays music, no Mike decided to go take a nap (sick) and left Sean to his own devices in the living room. Sean got a full bottle of Vim and poured some on the xbox...potty...adrienne's shoes....bird cage...dog cage...dog...carpet and on various books... So mike cleans the xbox and potty and leave the rest..along with all their dishes (still with food) on the kitchen table, table also covered with newspapers, counters cluttered with recyclables, all garbages overflowing. So he packs up and leaves. BTW, he didn't put Sean down for a nap and the kid passed out cold in our bed. So what did i do...CLEAN everything... I was so pissed! He did buy mother's day cards for me but didn't sign them til Wed. after his trip.
Crap i'm not expecting gifts, i've given up on sleeping in, the least he can do is ensure the house is clean one fucking day of the year!!
But emily made me a tissue paper flower in a clay pot and adrienne made a butterfly that unfortunately the dog got to before i did! The girls spent the weekend at my moms so the gifts were given on Friday...after Adrienne ruined Emily's surprise!
I get home to see him scrubbing the potty in the kitchen sink! No it wasn't ever used to poo or pee in, actually is just an expensive stepping stool that plays music, no Mike decided to go take a nap (sick) and left Sean to his own devices in the living room. Sean got a full bottle of Vim and poured some on the xbox...potty...adrienne's shoes....bird cage...dog cage...dog...carpet and on various books... So mike cleans the xbox and potty and leave the rest..along with all their dishes (still with food) on the kitchen table, table also covered with newspapers, counters cluttered with recyclables, all garbages overflowing. So he packs up and leaves. BTW, he didn't put Sean down for a nap and the kid passed out cold in our bed. So what did i do...CLEAN everything... I was so pissed! He did buy mother's day cards for me but didn't sign them til Wed. after his trip.
Crap i'm not expecting gifts, i've given up on sleeping in, the least he can do is ensure the house is clean one fucking day of the year!!
But emily made me a tissue paper flower in a clay pot and adrienne made a butterfly that unfortunately the dog got to before i did! The girls spent the weekend at my moms so the gifts were given on Friday...after Adrienne ruined Emily's surprise!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Don't tell me what to do!
Maybe i'm weird but i don't think i'll ever get used to this whole married, what's mine is yours, what's yours is mine crap. Seriously, we bought the bed set for Sean which is said i'd put $1000 toward--the same 1K that i'd been paying toward his shit for the last 5 months because i'm sick of being told we can't do this, that or the other thing because of this debt. Fine, plus i promised $$ for the BBQ, so today i get hit up for a cheque for $1500 and get told, "Don't you feel good you don't owe any more money." Excuse me?!?!?!?! I never owed any damn cash to begin with. Oh and then i even get questioned on what i'm going to do with the rest and get told that i don't have to put it in the kid account, i can keep it if I want. Geez, thank you! But you go out and buy Rockband ($169), Wiiiii ($350), Wiii games ($120) in the span of 2 weeks but you are the one to tell me how i should spend. FuCkYoU! This from the same guy that says well of course you can save cuz u never spend anything, No Shit Sherlock, because maybe we have different priorities than buying crap! And for the record, I buy all the kids clothes, shoes, etc and for myself and somehow i can still save, hmmmm, but i can decide how to spend my money!
There now i feel better!!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Decisions, Decisions...
I'll be the first to admit, I want too much, I expect too much and I always feel we could be better off or doing more. So ever since we moved from our tiny apartment, to our little house, I've been dreaming of the next one--the bigger house with 4 bedrooms and separate living room to buy expensive furniture and knick knacks that no one will ever sit on or enjoy...just me. Mike thinks i'm crazy and that's a total waste of space.
So things seem to be progressing with Mike's job and his earning could increase quite a bit...so he somehow implies that i could be a SAHM. Sure, great in theory but would i really want to give up 14 years of seniority, my pick of shifts, and 4 weeks paid vacation to say home until the youngest is in school. Heck no! I'm in the...well we can put the girls in afterschool care, they boys at a sitter for 1-2 hours an we will still be making a shitload more so we can save for retirement, kids' education and put extra on the house. (Its great being debt free!) I mean mike is actually considering moving and now i'm the one saying lets stay put. How screwed up is that!
All the panic about the economy and rising food/fuel costs is really going to help screw people over. Some are actually trying to stockpile a year's worth of food. Geez, no wonder they've driven up the cost of floor and grain! Call me optomistic or whatever you call someone that's looking to capitalize on someone else's misforture but i'm betting housing prices will go down in the higher end homes. I think low interest costs help alot of people to buy the big houses but the rising price of everything will make it difficult for many to afford their homes and food. I'm betting in the next few years the cost of the big houses will go down. Of course, I'm no financial expert just guessing but we'll see. All i know is that we are very comfortable where we are and until children, adults and animals start triping over each other. We can stay put....
So things seem to be progressing with Mike's job and his earning could increase quite a bit...so he somehow implies that i could be a SAHM. Sure, great in theory but would i really want to give up 14 years of seniority, my pick of shifts, and 4 weeks paid vacation to say home until the youngest is in school. Heck no! I'm in the...well we can put the girls in afterschool care, they boys at a sitter for 1-2 hours an we will still be making a shitload more so we can save for retirement, kids' education and put extra on the house. (Its great being debt free!) I mean mike is actually considering moving and now i'm the one saying lets stay put. How screwed up is that!
All the panic about the economy and rising food/fuel costs is really going to help screw people over. Some are actually trying to stockpile a year's worth of food. Geez, no wonder they've driven up the cost of floor and grain! Call me optomistic or whatever you call someone that's looking to capitalize on someone else's misforture but i'm betting housing prices will go down in the higher end homes. I think low interest costs help alot of people to buy the big houses but the rising price of everything will make it difficult for many to afford their homes and food. I'm betting in the next few years the cost of the big houses will go down. Of course, I'm no financial expert just guessing but we'll see. All i know is that we are very comfortable where we are and until children, adults and animals start triping over each other. We can stay put....
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Losing my mind...Insane ramble coming up!
I'm surprised that its been 9 days since i've blogged, Gawd how time just flies! We've just been busy little domestic beavers preparing the den for the newest colony member! Actually its just been gorgeous outside and we've been taking advantage.
My dear hubby got the cleaning bug so he cleaned out the garage and pulled out all the summer toys. He went out and got us a new fancy BBQ so he has not excuse not to cook me dinner now, LOL!! I started cleaning out the basement and managed to chuck another full bag of little girl clothing. It makes me sad that this is it, slowly all the baby stuff will be gone.
I had a crazy dream on Sunday night. I dreamt that i got up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom and out fell this beautiful--yet tiny baby girl. I was cool as a cucumber as I scooped her out of the toilet and cleaned her up and then went to wake up my mom to show her, her newest grandchild. Everyone was like HOLY SHIT!! I'm debating whether we really need to go to a hospital or if a doctor's office would suffice. So we put little miss premmie--who's now all dressed up in pink and looking around totally alert like an old soul--into her new carseat and we (an a bunch of strangers i've never seen before) go to the doctors office where we wait. Then I woke up to pee. I swear I work up Mike and said OMG, the ultrasound was wrong, its a GIRL!! He takes it completely another way and realizes he must get snipped cuz i'm now dreaming of our 5th child!! Funny thing is, it wouldn't surprise me. Oddly enough, he keeps asking me if we're really done. He forgot to get a referal at his last dr. appt. I'm starting to wonder if maybe its fear or a small desire for one more.
I don't think I could be prego again. I'm so sore and uncomfortable right now. I don't know how i'll live thru the next 15 weeks. This kid is gonna be one of those circus freaks that can twist his body into strange ways because he can manage to kick me in 6 different directions all at the same time....
I'm sick of the dog. I love the little bitch but at the same time, she fucking stinks, my house stinks, my carpet is completely ruining and all I smell today is dog piss!
I hate my fucking neighbors. Geez, every spring/summer/fall I hit the mls listing with vengence. I'm so sick of "SeanieeeeBoy!!" everytime my front door opens. I'm sick of the little brat next door that comes barrelling into our yard as soon as the backdoor opens. Now the little runt opens the door and i have to chase the stupid dog across 2 backyards so she doesn't dig up someones garden or leave a pile of shit for them to step on.
I've been browsing ebay passionately. Mostly boredom, but also creative research. Oh and i found my stocking! Too bad its taking its sweet ass time getting here! Work is deadsville and i need something besides making myself crosseyed with the interet to keep me occupied. So I was researching Gymboree. WTF is that right? I thought the same thing til I found that this is a big time brand of children's clothing that snotty people feel their little brats must have...its the Tommy Hilfiger, Nike, Lexus for kids. Okay maybe not that great but it does have some pretty good resale value, and they are supposed to be great quality. So watch out cuz i might become a Gymbo snob too! But i'm not allowed to shop until "our" credit card is paid off. Funny, the cc has his purchases at 5K and mine as 0, yes big fat zero but somehow its my shit. Fine Sean's bed was my doing but still. Guess what else, "we" are the proud owners of a Wiiiiiiii. We've played it about twice, great way to piss thru $400 not to mention the Rockband game that is taking up about 3 squared feet of basement floor space that has only been played once. But i can't shop!
I'm just cranky. My back is killing me. I spent wayyy to much time on the computer today.
I'm 3 pages away from finishing the entire 2005 scrapbook. Thank God. I just need about a million dollars worth of ink and photo paper....
Signing off for now
My dear hubby got the cleaning bug so he cleaned out the garage and pulled out all the summer toys. He went out and got us a new fancy BBQ so he has not excuse not to cook me dinner now, LOL!! I started cleaning out the basement and managed to chuck another full bag of little girl clothing. It makes me sad that this is it, slowly all the baby stuff will be gone.
I had a crazy dream on Sunday night. I dreamt that i got up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom and out fell this beautiful--yet tiny baby girl. I was cool as a cucumber as I scooped her out of the toilet and cleaned her up and then went to wake up my mom to show her, her newest grandchild. Everyone was like HOLY SHIT!! I'm debating whether we really need to go to a hospital or if a doctor's office would suffice. So we put little miss premmie--who's now all dressed up in pink and looking around totally alert like an old soul--into her new carseat and we (an a bunch of strangers i've never seen before) go to the doctors office where we wait. Then I woke up to pee. I swear I work up Mike and said OMG, the ultrasound was wrong, its a GIRL!! He takes it completely another way and realizes he must get snipped cuz i'm now dreaming of our 5th child!! Funny thing is, it wouldn't surprise me. Oddly enough, he keeps asking me if we're really done. He forgot to get a referal at his last dr. appt. I'm starting to wonder if maybe its fear or a small desire for one more.
I don't think I could be prego again. I'm so sore and uncomfortable right now. I don't know how i'll live thru the next 15 weeks. This kid is gonna be one of those circus freaks that can twist his body into strange ways because he can manage to kick me in 6 different directions all at the same time....
I'm sick of the dog. I love the little bitch but at the same time, she fucking stinks, my house stinks, my carpet is completely ruining and all I smell today is dog piss!
I hate my fucking neighbors. Geez, every spring/summer/fall I hit the mls listing with vengence. I'm so sick of "SeanieeeeBoy!!" everytime my front door opens. I'm sick of the little brat next door that comes barrelling into our yard as soon as the backdoor opens. Now the little runt opens the door and i have to chase the stupid dog across 2 backyards so she doesn't dig up someones garden or leave a pile of shit for them to step on.
I've been browsing ebay passionately. Mostly boredom, but also creative research. Oh and i found my stocking! Too bad its taking its sweet ass time getting here! Work is deadsville and i need something besides making myself crosseyed with the interet to keep me occupied. So I was researching Gymboree. WTF is that right? I thought the same thing til I found that this is a big time brand of children's clothing that snotty people feel their little brats must have...its the Tommy Hilfiger, Nike, Lexus for kids. Okay maybe not that great but it does have some pretty good resale value, and they are supposed to be great quality. So watch out cuz i might become a Gymbo snob too! But i'm not allowed to shop until "our" credit card is paid off. Funny, the cc has his purchases at 5K and mine as 0, yes big fat zero but somehow its my shit. Fine Sean's bed was my doing but still. Guess what else, "we" are the proud owners of a Wiiiiiiii. We've played it about twice, great way to piss thru $400 not to mention the Rockband game that is taking up about 3 squared feet of basement floor space that has only been played once. But i can't shop!
I'm just cranky. My back is killing me. I spent wayyy to much time on the computer today.
I'm 3 pages away from finishing the entire 2005 scrapbook. Thank God. I just need about a million dollars worth of ink and photo paper....
Signing off for now
Monday, April 14, 2008
Its All in a Name
I've been on BBC for at least 5 -6 years now. I've seen many women have their 4th, 5th, 9th, 15th pregnancy...okay many don't go as far as 15 but still, they don't seem to have any trouble naming them. We on the other hand are only on #4 and have no clue what to name him. Its a good thing that we did find out the sex of the baby before hand because we'd only have double the frustration (and arguments) agreeing on a name.
So to to narrow things down, we are considering:
Dylan James (or Joel)
Cameron James (or Joel)
Colin ?
Eric ?
I still want it to be Dylan!!
So to to narrow things down, we are considering:
Dylan James (or Joel)
Cameron James (or Joel)
Colin ?
Eric ?
I still want it to be Dylan!!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Idle Hands
Having oodles of inspiration and motivation does absolutely nothing for me when I'm stuck at my damn job for 9 hours staring at a damn computer screen.
I've finished all my current sewing projects and can't seem to find the perfect pattern for the new baby's stocking. Trust me, I've scoured ebay, michaels etc but i'm picky and need something that i actually want to look at for the next 4 months.
Scrapbooking is my current obsession but it's wayyyy too much effort to load pics onto the laptop, plus other digi kits that i've gotten online, do them at work, bring them home to print, then get pissed to find out that i want is not in the laptop and i have no ability to get it til i finish work. See my dilemma?!?!?! And there's only a few things on the internet message boards that are new and interesting on a Sunday. What a dilemma. Maybe I'll search some more sites for free scrapping downloads......
I've finished all my current sewing projects and can't seem to find the perfect pattern for the new baby's stocking. Trust me, I've scoured ebay, michaels etc but i'm picky and need something that i actually want to look at for the next 4 months.
Scrapbooking is my current obsession but it's wayyyy too much effort to load pics onto the laptop, plus other digi kits that i've gotten online, do them at work, bring them home to print, then get pissed to find out that i want is not in the laptop and i have no ability to get it til i finish work. See my dilemma?!?!?! And there's only a few things on the internet message boards that are new and interesting on a Sunday. What a dilemma. Maybe I'll search some more sites for free scrapping downloads......
OMG he slept!!!
I did a little science experiment with Sean yesterday. He keeps saying he's scared of Tigger so I put on a Winnie-the -Pooh movie to see if he freaks out seeing Tigger. He was laughing and bouncing around the living room just like Tigger so clear he's not as scared as he claims.
After baths at 6:30pm we all went to play in ds room. He goes in no problem. He sees the "pop up Pirates" game in the closet and he wants to play with it. Dh says okay you can play with it but you have to lie down in your bed. He scoots into his bed under his covers and takes the game. He's fine, we say goodnight (leaving lights on) and leave SUdDeNlY the kid starts freaking that he's scared. I think he's just manipulating things at this point. We close the door and leave. He screams and screams and kicks the door. We go in there again and take out the lightbulb, leaving the nightlight.
Finally he went to sleep after a 2.5hour battle.He was still sleeping when i left for work at 5:30am. I had 7 hours of straight sleep! God, I feel human again. I thinks
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Wish I had a REAL day off!
So i'm back after 2 days off of work. You'd think it would be restful. Not a chance.
I finally had my first doctor's appointment and shockingly this baby is growing right on track. Maybe my sister's right and it will be a chuncky baby! This appointment, smack dab in the middle of the afternoon just threw my whole day off track. I pulled Adrienne out of school so i could get to my mother's earlier and take a nap and then fought traffic to get back in the afternoon. Thank God i don't go for another month.
Speaking of sleep, I should borrow Fred Flintstone's toothpicks so i can keep my eyes open. We just finished 6 nights of Sean's sleepless hell. Lets see, thursday night we left him on the couch, truthfully we didn't care if he watched tv as long as he left us alone. Well he did find the remote and turned on Dexter on demand. I woke up at 5:16am to the sound of the creepy Dexter music and ran down to prevent the little psycho in training from watching the serial killer in action. Couldn't sleep after that...dozed off again after 6:30. Last night Mr. Vampire woke up at 12:10am and mike tossed him in bed with me while he and the dog slept on the couch. Sean walked me out at 5:30am when I went to work. Not sure how much more we can take.
We did go out and buy Sean a new bedroom set last night. 5 pieces of furniture for only $799. Totally sweet. However, our enthusiam was short lived went the little shit went on a 30 minute screaming fit in the furniture store b/c we wouldn't let him climb on the bunkbed unlike the parents of those 2 other brats that let their kids jump and run around like lunatics. Despite driving 40 minutes out of our way and planning to hit more stores on the way, at least we got the bed done and now we will have a place to sleep when Sean is bed hopping.
I finally had my first doctor's appointment and shockingly this baby is growing right on track. Maybe my sister's right and it will be a chuncky baby! This appointment, smack dab in the middle of the afternoon just threw my whole day off track. I pulled Adrienne out of school so i could get to my mother's earlier and take a nap and then fought traffic to get back in the afternoon. Thank God i don't go for another month.
Speaking of sleep, I should borrow Fred Flintstone's toothpicks so i can keep my eyes open. We just finished 6 nights of Sean's sleepless hell. Lets see, thursday night we left him on the couch, truthfully we didn't care if he watched tv as long as he left us alone. Well he did find the remote and turned on Dexter on demand. I woke up at 5:16am to the sound of the creepy Dexter music and ran down to prevent the little psycho in training from watching the serial killer in action. Couldn't sleep after that...dozed off again after 6:30. Last night Mr. Vampire woke up at 12:10am and mike tossed him in bed with me while he and the dog slept on the couch. Sean walked me out at 5:30am when I went to work. Not sure how much more we can take.
We did go out and buy Sean a new bedroom set last night. 5 pieces of furniture for only $799. Totally sweet. However, our enthusiam was short lived went the little shit went on a 30 minute screaming fit in the furniture store b/c we wouldn't let him climb on the bunkbed unlike the parents of those 2 other brats that let their kids jump and run around like lunatics. Despite driving 40 minutes out of our way and planning to hit more stores on the way, at least we got the bed done and now we will have a place to sleep when Sean is bed hopping.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Once a Month Cooking
It's amazing how when you are young you adamently swear that you will be nothing like your parents, in fact you will be the complete opposite. And then, the impossible happens....you get married, have kids (well we did that in reverse!) and you wake up one morning and realize you ARE your mother.
I'll freely admit growing up, I hated my parents' homebody/isolated lifestyles. Guess what, i really don't want to leave my house. Seriously, its not that i don't like people or social situations. I'm just tired. Way too tired after going to work all week, shopping, back and forth to school and with the dog, i like to be at home, and veg out in front of the tv. After 3 days of me eating cafeteria meals and the kids eating daddy's out of a box specials ie. hamburger helper, kraft dinner, hot dogs or pizza, i need to cook big homemade meals on my days off. Which again brings me to my mother.
I used to look at her gardening with scorn...Just get it at the freaking grocery store like a normal person. Or her canning and preserving....Why not just buy it at the freaking grocery store like a normal person? So what am I thinking?!?!?! I want a bigger house so I can start a garden. I want Mike to put shelving in the basement so I can stockpile, store and preserve. I want a freezer so i can do some batch cooking. So doing some googling at work I come up with this site: http://www.once-a-month-cookingworld.com/index.php and it has some pretty good sounding recipes--like there's alot that doesn't sound good at 5 months preggo!
So as I was growing up into the "progessive woman" I saw on tv, I ended up being June Cleaver aka. Mom and a "domestic goddess," LOL!!
I'll freely admit growing up, I hated my parents' homebody/isolated lifestyles. Guess what, i really don't want to leave my house. Seriously, its not that i don't like people or social situations. I'm just tired. Way too tired after going to work all week, shopping, back and forth to school and with the dog, i like to be at home, and veg out in front of the tv. After 3 days of me eating cafeteria meals and the kids eating daddy's out of a box specials ie. hamburger helper, kraft dinner, hot dogs or pizza, i need to cook big homemade meals on my days off. Which again brings me to my mother.
I used to look at her gardening with scorn...Just get it at the freaking grocery store like a normal person. Or her canning and preserving....Why not just buy it at the freaking grocery store like a normal person? So what am I thinking?!?!?! I want a bigger house so I can start a garden. I want Mike to put shelving in the basement so I can stockpile, store and preserve. I want a freezer so i can do some batch cooking. So doing some googling at work I come up with this site: http://www.once-a-month-cookingworld.com/index.php and it has some pretty good sounding recipes--like there's alot that doesn't sound good at 5 months preggo!
So as I was growing up into the "progessive woman" I saw on tv, I ended up being June Cleaver aka. Mom and a "domestic goddess," LOL!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Chaos Prevails
It's certainly been an interesting couple of days. Sunday was warm so we took the kids out for the first bike ride of the year. Elmo finally learned how to ride a 2 wheeler!!! I never thought i'd see the day, we tried and tried last year but she just wouldn't/couldn't do it and Sunday determination kicked it and it only took like 20 minutes!
A.G. was totally jealous of all the attention E was getting so suddenly played the helpless kid that desparately needed assistance. Snuffy was terrified of his tricycle but later screamed his head off that he wanted to ride A's bike (and helmet!).
A.G. was totally jealous of all the attention E was getting so suddenly played the helpless kid that desparately needed assistance. Snuffy was terrified of his tricycle but later screamed his head off that he wanted to ride A's bike (and helmet!).
The sleep situation is getting progressively worse. S has been waking between 4-5am and just kicking the door down, screaming at the top of his lungs to get out and that he's scared. Holy crap was i ever pissed off especially since i went to bed at 12:30am. So demon gets into bed with us, I doze off, he kicks me, I wake up and figure fuck it, I'll go to the couch, he follows me down and decided to watch tv (6:10am), i go back up, step in dog piss along the way, demon wake up girls about 20 minutes later, I doze in and out until 8:30. Feel like death. My afternoon nap goes pretty much the same way. I wake up to school library books being coloured and a new container of peanut-butter 3/4 empty with a butter knife in it on the living room floor, dog hair all around the lid and pb on my new hair brush. It is now 10:16pm and i'm ready to rip every moron that calls here a new one...i'm not so happily at work.....15 weeks til i'm on maternity leave, thank god!!
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Homeschooling
As insane as this may sound, i've been researching homeschool. Not full fledged homeschooling where i have to deal with all the maniacs 24/7 but partial homeschool so the they can actually learn something. This is mainly for the little ones but even 2nd grade Elmo would definately benefit.
What a difference a generation makes. In my school years, sure there were kids whose parents spoke another language with them at home but in school all the kids spoke english. There were very few in ESL and those picked up the language real quick anyway but now, my kids' teachers tell the immigrant parents to read to their kids in their own language. Seriously, how the hell will that help them learn english when their native language doesn't even use the same alphabet! This same teacher said the Elmo was at the top of her class in reading yet she stumbled on simple 3 and 4 letter words. Mind you her reading has greatly improved mainly due to her love of read and writing but still, they don't even have their own text books and reading books in school. Its all just photocopied pages out of a book or the internet.
A couple days ago there was an article in the Toronto Star that said the Toronto School Board was trying to create a uniform homework policy because kids are waaaayyyyy overburdened by homework. Where the heck are these schools, cuz i'm moving there. Elmo gets one page, front and back per week.. Maybe 10 minutes per week with 20 minutes of solo reading each day.
A.G. is almost 3/4 of the way thru junior kindergarten and has just started writing her name on her own. For some unknown reason she tries to read from right to left (the time). She is interested in books so that helps.
Snuffy is also "reading" it starts with "once upon a time" mumble, mumble, mumble "the end." But he does have more patience to sit still so i'm going to do the pre- curriculum on http://letteroftheweek.com/. It involves learning letter sounds, shapes, animal themes each week and mainly new songs/rhymes, most of which is on the website and then we can get a couple books from the library to complete the theme each week. I think it will be fun without being too overwhelming, its all about 1 hour per day.
For Elmo, since she loves to read so much I was looking into the American Girl series. Some homeschooling moms on BBC highly recommend them b/c the are written from the perspective of a 9ish year old and are set during a time period of American history. This can help build different discussions and more research about the events featured. I'd also like E to learn how to type and get more exposure to computing. It amazes me how much is out there in terms of homeschooling topics that never get addressed in the public school system simply because of a lack of resources and the sheer number of kids.
I love reading Janis' Unschooling Blog. Unschooling is mainly child/interest led learning that doesn't follow a set curriculum or (for the most part) use conventional book learning. I personally don't feel that that alot of the stuff kids in ps are made to regurgitate are necessary for real life but i do think much of the book learning is valuable. I digress, back to Janis' blog, many of her learning activities are family outings and hands on doing. Over the easter holidays I had the kids decorate a hard boiled egg each (with markers). Did they ever have a blast, all 3 sat around the table for about an hour with one egg, coloring, recoloring, dropping, peeling, eating, saying it was disgusting, throwing out after proudly showing daddy their eggs.
Its things like this that I look forward to. Them being so proud of their accomplishment and their desire to do it rather than having to do it. Another thing we saw on Janis' website are the homemade birdfeeders, I'm going to have the kids make it to hang from the tree infront of our house.
I wish we had more time to go on little family day trips. We took the kids to the Maple Syrup festival at the Kortright Center, the kids really enjoyed the hike and the major sugar rush lolly pops daddy got them. I can't wait until i'm off for the year!
What a difference a generation makes. In my school years, sure there were kids whose parents spoke another language with them at home but in school all the kids spoke english. There were very few in ESL and those picked up the language real quick anyway but now, my kids' teachers tell the immigrant parents to read to their kids in their own language. Seriously, how the hell will that help them learn english when their native language doesn't even use the same alphabet! This same teacher said the Elmo was at the top of her class in reading yet she stumbled on simple 3 and 4 letter words. Mind you her reading has greatly improved mainly due to her love of read and writing but still, they don't even have their own text books and reading books in school. Its all just photocopied pages out of a book or the internet.
A couple days ago there was an article in the Toronto Star that said the Toronto School Board was trying to create a uniform homework policy because kids are waaaayyyyy overburdened by homework. Where the heck are these schools, cuz i'm moving there. Elmo gets one page, front and back per week.. Maybe 10 minutes per week with 20 minutes of solo reading each day.
A.G. is almost 3/4 of the way thru junior kindergarten and has just started writing her name on her own. For some unknown reason she tries to read from right to left (the time). She is interested in books so that helps.
Snuffy is also "reading" it starts with "once upon a time" mumble, mumble, mumble "the end." But he does have more patience to sit still so i'm going to do the pre- curriculum on http://letteroftheweek.com/. It involves learning letter sounds, shapes, animal themes each week and mainly new songs/rhymes, most of which is on the website and then we can get a couple books from the library to complete the theme each week. I think it will be fun without being too overwhelming, its all about 1 hour per day.
For Elmo, since she loves to read so much I was looking into the American Girl series. Some homeschooling moms on BBC highly recommend them b/c the are written from the perspective of a 9ish year old and are set during a time period of American history. This can help build different discussions and more research about the events featured. I'd also like E to learn how to type and get more exposure to computing. It amazes me how much is out there in terms of homeschooling topics that never get addressed in the public school system simply because of a lack of resources and the sheer number of kids.
I love reading Janis' Unschooling Blog. Unschooling is mainly child/interest led learning that doesn't follow a set curriculum or (for the most part) use conventional book learning. I personally don't feel that that alot of the stuff kids in ps are made to regurgitate are necessary for real life but i do think much of the book learning is valuable. I digress, back to Janis' blog, many of her learning activities are family outings and hands on doing. Over the easter holidays I had the kids decorate a hard boiled egg each (with markers). Did they ever have a blast, all 3 sat around the table for about an hour with one egg, coloring, recoloring, dropping, peeling, eating, saying it was disgusting, throwing out after proudly showing daddy their eggs.
Its things like this that I look forward to. Them being so proud of their accomplishment and their desire to do it rather than having to do it. Another thing we saw on Janis' website are the homemade birdfeeders, I'm going to have the kids make it to hang from the tree infront of our house.
I wish we had more time to go on little family day trips. We took the kids to the Maple Syrup festival at the Kortright Center, the kids really enjoyed the hike and the major sugar rush lolly pops daddy got them. I can't wait until i'm off for the year!
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Serious sleep issues
My kids are all serious drama queens. Elmo is suddenly scared of the dark again. A.G. says she's scared of the dark because Elmo is scared of the dark and now Snuffy is hysterical about even going into his room.
So we do the massive shopping spree and we get new decor for the boy's room--Cars theme cuz he's just inlove with Lightening McQueen and nightlights for each kids room. The room looks great we're all in there, kids and dogs are playing. No problem. Snuffy is in awe of the McQueen wall. Time for bed, nightlights go on and hysteria begins. HOly Shit!!! Girls freak out cuz it goes off and refuse to go to sleep until the light is back on. Mind you they had been in bed for like an hour before it went off but they just yap, yap, yap. In their defense, Snuffy was trying break the door down to get out of his cage/room. So he crashed out on the couch and got carried to bed. Next day, he's in bed with me and freaked when the lights turned off. "I Tigger! I 'cared. Tigger, 'cared!"
Great, so now video games are banned. DVD players unhooked. We're stuck with treehouse!
So we do the massive shopping spree and we get new decor for the boy's room--Cars theme cuz he's just inlove with Lightening McQueen and nightlights for each kids room. The room looks great we're all in there, kids and dogs are playing. No problem. Snuffy is in awe of the McQueen wall. Time for bed, nightlights go on and hysteria begins. HOly Shit!!! Girls freak out cuz it goes off and refuse to go to sleep until the light is back on. Mind you they had been in bed for like an hour before it went off but they just yap, yap, yap. In their defense, Snuffy was trying break the door down to get out of his cage/room. So he crashed out on the couch and got carried to bed. Next day, he's in bed with me and freaked when the lights turned off. "I Tigger! I 'cared. Tigger, 'cared!"
Great, so now video games are banned. DVD players unhooked. We're stuck with treehouse!
We've reached the light at the end of the tunnel!!
Finally, after years of stressing over it and busting our ass we are DEBT-FREE!! Well we will be when the cheque comes within 2 weeks but still. Its insane to the think that we did the second job and ran ourselves ragged only to get there with one phone call and cheque. But screw it, its done.
Nevertheless, despite all the shit that we did, we spent all Thursday (the day before we found out about our windfall) going from store to store and planning all the stuff we want for the house--furniture, appliances, BBQ, patio set, hardwood flooring! Just let it rain about 8K and i'll be all set, LOL! Never enough! But at least we didn't walk out with an 8K bill, we bought nothing just looked.
We go home and of course, i go ape shit b/c my cleaning schedule has been completely thrown off. Most women would be thrilled their hubbies gave them the excuse to do nothing but no not me, I had to declutter the bathroom cupboard while M gave the kids dinner.....My compulsive cleaning is almost done though, just the living room and basement, woo hoo...
Nevertheless, despite all the shit that we did, we spent all Thursday (the day before we found out about our windfall) going from store to store and planning all the stuff we want for the house--furniture, appliances, BBQ, patio set, hardwood flooring! Just let it rain about 8K and i'll be all set, LOL! Never enough! But at least we didn't walk out with an 8K bill, we bought nothing just looked.
We go home and of course, i go ape shit b/c my cleaning schedule has been completely thrown off. Most women would be thrilled their hubbies gave them the excuse to do nothing but no not me, I had to declutter the bathroom cupboard while M gave the kids dinner.....My compulsive cleaning is almost done though, just the living room and basement, woo hoo...
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
All About A.G. & Snuffy
A.G is Daddy's little princess and my little rabbit as she's been affectionately known since she was a baby. She's one spunky little kid. She's friends with everyone at school and seems so confident in social situations. AG really does have the gift of the gab but when it comes to school work and participating she's very shy and quiet though aware of everything. I love how she tells me everything, with Elmo, you'd think the kid works for the CIA.
But boy can she be bull headed! "Well i'm not going to eat my breakfast, lunch or dinner because you're not letting me do whatever!" She'll be the total night owl eventually but don't poke the hybernating bear in the morning. Once she gets going, no mountain is too high and no obstacle too big.
Snuffy is my almost 3 year old terror. He's also lovingly know as demon shit. Terrible I know but if you see this kid's temper you'll expect his head to start spinning at any moment. He has been diagnosed as speech delayed but has made remarkable strides in the last 6 months. he's so sweet the way he'll worry about me and ask, "Mummy, you okay." It's astonishing how he can be discounted because he's so hard to understand but he's one smart little cookie. His thing is buttons, he can load up and shut down the computer and launches whatever programs he wants. I've had to unplug all the DVD players and VCRs because he loads and unloads the movies and has scratched them in the process. Today he's like, "No, I not going I watch Cars." I don't be thinking so. He's going to be some kind of genius or terrorist!
But boy can she be bull headed! "Well i'm not going to eat my breakfast, lunch or dinner because you're not letting me do whatever!" She'll be the total night owl eventually but don't poke the hybernating bear in the morning. Once she gets going, no mountain is too high and no obstacle too big.
Snuffy is my almost 3 year old terror. He's also lovingly know as demon shit. Terrible I know but if you see this kid's temper you'll expect his head to start spinning at any moment. He has been diagnosed as speech delayed but has made remarkable strides in the last 6 months. he's so sweet the way he'll worry about me and ask, "Mummy, you okay." It's astonishing how he can be discounted because he's so hard to understand but he's one smart little cookie. His thing is buttons, he can load up and shut down the computer and launches whatever programs he wants. I've had to unplug all the DVD players and VCRs because he loads and unloads the movies and has scratched them in the process. Today he's like, "No, I not going I watch Cars." I don't be thinking so. He's going to be some kind of genius or terrorist!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
My First Blog Post!
I've been wanting to start a blog for some time but I'm the queen of procrastination until a fire gets lit under my ass and then i go on a rampage! The funny thing is, this my way of sorting thru a midlife crisis of sorts. A question of who I am, who I want to become and the journey to get there.
I'm the mom of 3 little monsters, Elmo (girl age 7), A.G (girl age 4), Snuffy (boy age 2) and soon to be Baby Bear (due Aug 10, 08). Wifey to Father Chaos who can be overwhelmed but hides it with wit and goofiness. We're also starting the collection of pets with a budgie named Mellow and a Bichon puppy, Noelle. That's the inspiration for my blog title, controlling the chaos while maintaining my sanity or trying to anyway.
As it finally becomes spring after one of the most crappy winters on record, I feel tons of motivations to get things done, to start new things and to change things about myself that I haven't been happy but somehow put off til tomorrow. Sadly, priorities get skewed when facing mountains of laundry, overflowing toy boxes, a filthy house and while having to get to work on time. So I have 4 months left before I go on my last year long vacation. 4 months left to organize and plan so I can help balance what I want to do with what I need to do.
I want to play with the kids, I want to go on little trips with them, I want to partially homeschool them, I want to be the semi crunchy old fashion sort of mama that came from Leave it to Beaver times, I want to be more easy going and yell less often. But I still need to get things done, I need my house in order and cleanliness, home cooked meals and craft time. This will be the journey of seeking balance and establishing calm in the storm of little children. To be able to see where the road takes our little family and to watch the little monsters grow and learn.
I'm the mom of 3 little monsters, Elmo (girl age 7), A.G (girl age 4), Snuffy (boy age 2) and soon to be Baby Bear (due Aug 10, 08). Wifey to Father Chaos who can be overwhelmed but hides it with wit and goofiness. We're also starting the collection of pets with a budgie named Mellow and a Bichon puppy, Noelle. That's the inspiration for my blog title, controlling the chaos while maintaining my sanity or trying to anyway.
As it finally becomes spring after one of the most crappy winters on record, I feel tons of motivations to get things done, to start new things and to change things about myself that I haven't been happy but somehow put off til tomorrow. Sadly, priorities get skewed when facing mountains of laundry, overflowing toy boxes, a filthy house and while having to get to work on time. So I have 4 months left before I go on my last year long vacation. 4 months left to organize and plan so I can help balance what I want to do with what I need to do.
I want to play with the kids, I want to go on little trips with them, I want to partially homeschool them, I want to be the semi crunchy old fashion sort of mama that came from Leave it to Beaver times, I want to be more easy going and yell less often. But I still need to get things done, I need my house in order and cleanliness, home cooked meals and craft time. This will be the journey of seeking balance and establishing calm in the storm of little children. To be able to see where the road takes our little family and to watch the little monsters grow and learn.
All about Elmo
Its amazing how one family can have 10 children and all are unique and totally different in their own way. Elmo is the child that really pushes my buttons, makes me second guess myself and really is a challenge because we are so different--or so similar according to my mother.
Elmo was born prematurely and even as tiny little person in the special care nursery, one nurse dubbed her "the thinker." I hadn't thought of that in years until today when i had a very enlightening conversation with Jen, my co-worker, that I'll get to later. But she looks at things from a very logical perspective. She loves to read and write. She wrote a song last week that really seems like a window in her soul. I'll type it into here tomorrow when i'm at home.
She's so complex for a seven year old. She can be confident, outgoing, mouthy, an attention seeker and at the same time a scared little girl that is anxious, timid and totally unsure of herself. Its so difficult as a parent when you have a bright and logical booksmart child who can be overwhelmed by day-to-day experiences that other children enjoy and don't think twice about.
Today Jen was telling me about all the anxiety she experienced as a child and still feels as an adult. I guess hearing it from Jen really hits home that it is real. Its not just an attempt to be difficult, troublesome or an attention hog. Its so hard to relate when you were the complete opposite as a kid, looking back you were the little asshole that tormented the poor kid that was scared shitless to jump in the pool or ride his bike recklessly down the breakneck speeds.
We were pissed last year when went to Disney world and she was too terrified of getting on anything that moves. Looking back it obviously didn't help matters or change things except taint the trip with bad memories. I mean Disney is something we enjoy, its something all kids enjoy or at least everyone's except ours. Its like a personal failure as a parent that my kid is a scaredy cat. But that goes back to finding new ways to relate to her with things that she enjoys. Seriously though, I don't see myself at the ballet.
Elmo was born prematurely and even as tiny little person in the special care nursery, one nurse dubbed her "the thinker." I hadn't thought of that in years until today when i had a very enlightening conversation with Jen, my co-worker, that I'll get to later. But she looks at things from a very logical perspective. She loves to read and write. She wrote a song last week that really seems like a window in her soul. I'll type it into here tomorrow when i'm at home.
She's so complex for a seven year old. She can be confident, outgoing, mouthy, an attention seeker and at the same time a scared little girl that is anxious, timid and totally unsure of herself. Its so difficult as a parent when you have a bright and logical booksmart child who can be overwhelmed by day-to-day experiences that other children enjoy and don't think twice about.
Today Jen was telling me about all the anxiety she experienced as a child and still feels as an adult. I guess hearing it from Jen really hits home that it is real. Its not just an attempt to be difficult, troublesome or an attention hog. Its so hard to relate when you were the complete opposite as a kid, looking back you were the little asshole that tormented the poor kid that was scared shitless to jump in the pool or ride his bike recklessly down the breakneck speeds.
We were pissed last year when went to Disney world and she was too terrified of getting on anything that moves. Looking back it obviously didn't help matters or change things except taint the trip with bad memories. I mean Disney is something we enjoy, its something all kids enjoy or at least everyone's except ours. Its like a personal failure as a parent that my kid is a scaredy cat. But that goes back to finding new ways to relate to her with things that she enjoys. Seriously though, I don't see myself at the ballet.
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